12/10 - catchup as always

OK So we will start with 12/10

My day on Friday started kind of hectic I got up late! I checked on face book and like everything else I try last minute to do something for myself. I wanted to go to Salon Rock to get my hair done. In all honesty I wanted to win a free makeover from Salon Rock, but I didn't get enough votes. My friend Anna won a free makeover though and I don't know if she will be here for it though. She deserves it lol, after all she has 4 kids, and a father who is dieing and no time for herself! So a makeover would give her a little time for just her.

Salon rock is up on Cumberland avenue, I call them and they say that I have to come in for a consultation before they can give me an Idea of how much it may cost to just cut, color (I have greys) and style my hair. So since I live in Lenoir City I don't have the time today to drive all the way to Knoxville, be disappointed, drive back to Lenoir city and get Kailey ready and just do a whole Knox, LC, Knox trip. I just can't do it!

So I called All tangled up hair salon they squeeze me in last minute. I drive over get my hair done and then go home and do a speed clean on my house. I made a secret appointment for Kailey to get her hair done, and me to get a pedicure for next week. Can't afford it but I only live once and I have never had a pedicure.

I run Kailey up to the asthma and allergy center where the person she is supposed to see is not there this is in KNOX and then I have to run all the way back home cause I forgot her POMS and I had left early anyway to get her to the center before they closed and still didn't get to do what I wanted.

So I run back to Knox after retrieving the POMS from my home we make it on time for cheer! During Cheer Kailey tells Mrs. Lacey that the cheers are LAME and she is ruining her life! OK what 4-year-old says these things? She is not SPOILED! I mean we don't give her what she wants, she only gets presents 2 times a year, we don't buy candy and she doesn't go to the toy isle. We have pretty much tried everything to get this mentality taken care of and it is not going away she definitely has a false sense of entitlement.

So after this things smooth out and I get up and run in the bathroom to throw on some makeup because after I leave here I gotta back track back to LC to drop Kailey off... then jump back in my truck and run all the way back up to Knox (YES again) just like I didn't want to have to do and make it to our company Christmas party.

So I do this and I make good time back to Knox. But then I have to drive around for 1 hour looking for the hole in the wall our company is hosting this party at. My GPS on my phone is giving me sporadic directions. I printed off the directions (a map with arrows all over it) that were sent via email at work. Well you can't make heads nor tails of it because it is just as I said above a map with arrows!!! JEEZ!

I have been having HIGH blood pressure problems here lately and before I get to the party I can feel it starting, I feel like everything (head, head ache, fire, heart ects...) has risen into my head. I am trying to calm myself down and I find the place but I am horribly late. I hate showing up last!

So I walk in I see barely anyone I know, then I go outside I find Pam, Tammy, Chris, and Scott graves. Chris tells me that they are putting the food away so I grab some wine and go get some food (I haven't eaten all day). So I go get some food, I start walking through the main dinning room and all the tables look full.

I have been feeling some real anxiety since I got here and I am not sure why. I go to a table in a back room that is unoccupied and I sit down. It is a huge table seats up to 8 people and I am now sitting at it alone. I don't know what is wrong with me cause I feel kind of sad being by myself. So then Tom and his wife Lisa join me and I feel much better.

It is just nice to see people I actually know!!! At my table lol. I normally don't act like this, but I am nervous and anxious really bad and I don't know why. Maybe I over estimated that I would actually have someone come with me... maybe I depended on this too much and got my hopes up a bit. Anna couldn't come as she was with her dad (this is understandable).

I went as far as to invite my brother, being totally anxious I figured having someone go would be better than going alone. Tomorrow is my birthday and I just want to be out for one night with people I enjoy going somewhere with and not alone at a table in the back.

So when Tom and Lisa showed up at my table it made me feel better, but for some reason the Anxiety didn't go away. I also had a horrible sense of impending doom that just wouldn't go away. Maybe I just had too much on my mind.

The party was fun though if I could have broken away from all that weirdness I may have enjoyed it more. I kept feeling like other people felt obligated to join me and that didn't help it any, or obligated to talk to me or come over and make mention of my awkwardness.

I just didn't feel comfortable.

Tom and Lisa soon left and I was left to hang and just wait. I kept worrying that Buddy wouldn't make Kailey go to bed and she would be up too late. She has a cheer competition tomorrow and we have to be up by 7 am to be there on time. It is in Maryville. This will be how I spend my birthday as it is tomorrow.

I didn't win any prizes as I never do with company functions and they are always on my birthday! In 3 years of going to parties I haven't ever won anything at a one of them.

I leave the party and follow Dewayne and Pam to a place called the brewery. We go in and there is no where to sit. So they decide they are going to walk a block or so to the old city and go to URBAN. I am fine with this but then get to thinking it is almost 11 or so now and I should go home and do my motherly duty of making sure Kailey is in bed so she can get up for competition tomorrow! So I do that instead of stay out late! I wish I could have carelessly stayed out late! But my mind wouldn't let me.

I felt bad but parted my ways and went on to take care of home business!

Just as I thought, she isn't in bed when I get home. It is time for her to be in bed knowing she has cheer competition tomorrow I have to get her to bed. She is wired though and every time I lay down I catch her running or sneaking across the living room.

This makes me mad but I finally get her to lay down and we all go to sleep at about 1 am.