February is hard

So it is February already, it has been a hard month on all of of us. I am missing my baby, this week she has been so fussy we are worried she is going to get sick or the colic! Nail biter.

So here are February Pics soo far...
These are my little smokey dogs:

 

 

 

 

 
 
 

These are my gifts for valentines day and just because. I love them. Buddy is so good to me.  




 

My just because necklace


 

My just because Earrings



My valentines day bracelet and Watch



ugh bills

So with a new bundle of joy come the bills. There was the over 500.00 to get my IUD put back in, over 100.00 to the anesthesiologist. I now owe Pediatrix obstetrix (the people who cared for Emma in the hospital) over 500.00. Buddy is still laid off, he got laid off Friday before Emma was born, she was born 2 days later on Saturday Night Sunday morning, a few hours past the Due Date I had told my doctor and 5 days shy of the due date he told me!

So lets just put it this way with an FMLA check coming once for me while I was on Maternity Leave and then him getting unemployment we lived hard and are still struggling to stay afloat. Luckly i am breast feeding or we would have the burden of formula.

I have now worked 6 days straight and I dont intend on being here sunday. I wish I didn't have to work overtime, I wish that I could do something else to make extra cash that I love! If staying at home with miss emma was a choice I would take it in a heartbeat. I love her little butt... she is such a sweet baby and every minute with her is rewarding.

This morning I was sure she was going to laugh. These are the many things you miss the firsts of when you work, I DID NOT miss her first smile but am sure to miss the first laugh, when she rolls over for the first time, when she crawls for the first time, those kinds of things she will hopefully save for mommy!

I am hoping to get a used van my truck is too crowded for hauling car seats and stuff. It has a backseat but it was made for butts not carseats so I am happy to get a van. I know I only have 2 children but I need room for other people. Like Buddy's mom when she comes in. If she has briar and olivia there will be extra room for them. People keep saying you want a van? I don't care it is a vehicle to get me from point A to point B... I am not a teenager and when I was I owned a van an 8 passenger it was an old van with the bench seats and I loved it because it was a car to drive around in and it held all the people I could fit in it lol.

People who view cars as a social club thing are stupid. I don't care if I pull up in a two seater with kids strapped to the hood it is what got us there and no one died!! lol. So NO I am not embarrassed to drive a van! ha ha.

I went out with my lady friends last night, we went to HOOTERS for Tangela's birthday. Oh what fun. My friend queet kept saying "I told yall she was crazy" no I am not crazy, I just don't give a damn, there is a difference. I had fun and when we left hooters I jokingly said "sorry if i O'Fended anyone or EMbarrASSed anyone, next time I will just appologise in advance" LOL. I have fun when I go out.

I want to go to the comedy club next though I think it will be fun. I enjoy a good laugh and most of the time I am really good at giving laughs. we live such a short life to not laugh enough to remember. When I am old and dieing at a nursing home somewhere I want to be able to say "oh I remember that time when we laughed so hard at....." not "oh I remember that time the dishes weren't done and the house was a cluttered mess and I couldn't get the strength to climb my ass off the couch and do something about it."

Well another short sweet post. I am hoping to put up more pictures of my baby girl tomorrow I need to take more pictures of her she is already 12lbs. One day I will look back at this post and be like she is 100 lbs now and I miss the 12 lb her. lol

Long long days, Short short weekends.

Emma and Kailey are both doing great. I love them both, but here lately kailey has showed her butt. I know what you are thinking, new baby, old kids shows butt.... It has nothing to do with Emma.... Kailey just knows the perfect times to show her butt when you cant do anything about it.

I was pumping and she showed her butt. I was on the phone and she showed her butt. I was trying to sleep and you guessed it she showed her butt. IT is about rediculous, lol. There are also too many birthdays in January and February. We have been to a birthday 1 every week now. I feel bad for all those kids even my Kiwi as she has her birthday in January to.

Well despite Kiwi showing her tail I gotta give it to her, she is kickin rear in Kindergarten, she is making good grades, but she has a poster due this friday we didn't learn about it until tuesday and I work so thursday I am going to have to leave early go get everything I need and make her a poster out of some materials cause that is just what moms do!

Emma smiles real big, I just know she is going to burst out laughing any day~! I just keep waiting and hoping that I am one of the first people to hear it :-)

I love those kids, I just wish Kailey would be good! I don't know why but it seems the more we punish her the more she acts out and tries to get in more trouble I guess thinking we will let it go or something. I don't understand when I was a kid if we got in to trouble we did everything to stop or keep from getting a whoopin and be good. I know sometimes we crossed the line and got a whoopin and all but it seems like we have to whoop kailey every day!


Today I am soo ready for bed I am 100% tired and I am not sure why! I have been up since 4 got 3 people ready this morning and I am just too tired to continue on. I hope to get more up to date photos and post them tomorrow

They are both smiling but Emma's eyes shut because of the flash!