So today was the Kindergarten round up and a doctor appointment for both my situations. It was great been busy all day. I then went and had chill time with my cousin Erin. I love her, sober anyways.
So at Kindergarten round up I saw people from my work, I am glad to see they have children my daughters age. That will be nice knowing other people who have kids her age, and working with them.
I am hoping that maybe when Kailey starts school it will take some of the wildness out of her. I also hope to pack her lunch. I mean we can't all be blessed with food stamps, free-reduced lunch, and lord knows what they are feeding her at school. I know stay at home moms who don't pack their kids lunch, they rely on the system to feed and cloth their children as if we took them to raise. Yes since I have a job I feel I should have a bit of say what happens with my tax dollars!
So. I can't wait for her to start school. She is excited I know people who say "I cried the day my baby went to school for the first time" those people are lonely system leaches who are use to just lazying around the house all day while their kids sit in front of the TV, I on the other hand, have a job and am use to not being around my kid during the day so it wont bother me at all when she starts school. It will be a more structured Environment for her to belong in and have a good day learning things instead of being stuck in a place that does nothing for her.
I haven't figured out if we are going to pay for daycare before and after school, or just give my mom money to drop her off and pick her up. I don't know who I would prefer to do it. It will just be nice her going to school.
Well I have a LOT of stuff to do today, 100% busy. I am just taking a break and heading back out. So hope everyone enjoys the blog.
Also I know that some people who sit at home with their children are not system leaches they have a husband with a good job that pays the bills and buys the food. And they work hard as stay at home mothers. I condone those who go above and beyond to be great stay at home moms. But the others I have a problem with. So no offense to the REAL mothers out there who are kick'n ass at home with children in tow.
Friday, April 29, 2011
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
So you think I would type in this thing daily. Lol
So, you know you would think I would be able to Post on this thing daily but unfortunately I forget a bunch. I am tired a lot, and I have been sick. I don't even face book much anymore. I am just too tired for all of it. But I am trying to keep a log of this Pregnancy and things that are going on in my life.
So, my cousin Erin is still having a hard time. She went to Court today, and Chasity, her daughter's, father's, ex-wife, tried to get custody of Emily, claiming that since she has two children by Emily's father they are all biological brothers and sisters, and she thinks they need to be kept together.
That is sad cause girl has never even seen Emily. She barely knew her name was Emily. She don't even want to take care of her own children! She leaves them with Wes's grandparents all the time. In court today she Told the judge that she never leaves them with Sue and Boyd (the grandparents) cause they are incompetent, but Sue and Boyd pay Chasity's bills, and take care of her 2 children with Wes all the time. In fact after she and Wes Divorced they bought Chasity a car so she wouldn't have to worry about having a way to get the kids to the doc and stuff. It wasn't a clunker either it was a nice Toyota Camry, and Chasity has a 3rd child by another man that she abandons with an elderly lady from church. That child doesn't ever see Chasity, the elderly lady always has him and she is always taking care of him.
This is sad, cause at least Erin did stuff with all three of the kids, she always let them have fun and do things that were good and fun for kids. All Chasity does is Face book. Now I face book, I just don't keep my nose in Face book 24/7 she posts like every 5 minutes. The kids say she is always yelling at them if they even speak to her while she is on the computer.
I just wish things could be different for Erin. I dont' know what to do so far I have just tried to keep her from feeling SO damn awful. Luckily the judge decided against Chasity having Emily, and let her continue to stay at Karen and Eds.
We are having a birthday party for Pam tomorrow at work and I had run out and picked up a bunch of stuff for the party at Lunch. I came back to work and went in search of a hamburger. I have been SO tired all day. I can't wait to lay down and go to sleep tonight. lol
So, my cousin Erin is still having a hard time. She went to Court today, and Chasity, her daughter's, father's, ex-wife, tried to get custody of Emily, claiming that since she has two children by Emily's father they are all biological brothers and sisters, and she thinks they need to be kept together.
That is sad cause girl has never even seen Emily. She barely knew her name was Emily. She don't even want to take care of her own children! She leaves them with Wes's grandparents all the time. In court today she Told the judge that she never leaves them with Sue and Boyd (the grandparents) cause they are incompetent, but Sue and Boyd pay Chasity's bills, and take care of her 2 children with Wes all the time. In fact after she and Wes Divorced they bought Chasity a car so she wouldn't have to worry about having a way to get the kids to the doc and stuff. It wasn't a clunker either it was a nice Toyota Camry, and Chasity has a 3rd child by another man that she abandons with an elderly lady from church. That child doesn't ever see Chasity, the elderly lady always has him and she is always taking care of him.
This is sad, cause at least Erin did stuff with all three of the kids, she always let them have fun and do things that were good and fun for kids. All Chasity does is Face book. Now I face book, I just don't keep my nose in Face book 24/7 she posts like every 5 minutes. The kids say she is always yelling at them if they even speak to her while she is on the computer.
I just wish things could be different for Erin. I dont' know what to do so far I have just tried to keep her from feeling SO damn awful. Luckily the judge decided against Chasity having Emily, and let her continue to stay at Karen and Eds.
We are having a birthday party for Pam tomorrow at work and I had run out and picked up a bunch of stuff for the party at Lunch. I came back to work and went in search of a hamburger. I have been SO tired all day. I can't wait to lay down and go to sleep tonight. lol
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
The day went well
Hungry all day long. Lol. I am always hungry. I saw a house online I wish buddy would go look at with me. It is nearby and it is cheap. We can keep what we have and have our own place on our own property. My plan would be to rent this house and for the first 2 years let the money go to my grandparents. Then after than just pocket it to make our new house look nicer.
IT would be so nice to move. I have dreams of moving but making it affordable is another situation. It would be so great to not live near my family. I mean still live relatively close but not next door. Next door is too much. So much easier to live blocks away ha ha.
I am sitting at home contemplating taking Kailey to movies at the park, at 9pm. It would be nice to just have a relaxing night after a good day. It has been decent no problems. I like a life with less drama and less troubles. I was up early this morning and I will be in bed early tonight just as I was last night. I am hoping this situation continues, my sleeping has been right on. I don't have to lay awake on the couch or in the bed waiting for sleep to come.
IT would be so nice to move. I have dreams of moving but making it affordable is another situation. It would be so great to not live near my family. I mean still live relatively close but not next door. Next door is too much. So much easier to live blocks away ha ha.
I am sitting at home contemplating taking Kailey to movies at the park, at 9pm. It would be nice to just have a relaxing night after a good day. It has been decent no problems. I like a life with less drama and less troubles. I was up early this morning and I will be in bed early tonight just as I was last night. I am hoping this situation continues, my sleeping has been right on. I don't have to lay awake on the couch or in the bed waiting for sleep to come.
So back to REAL IMPORTANT STUFF
Yes our Baby #2. Kailey is super exited about Baby #2. I can't wait for Kailey to start school because my mother fills her head with some random stuff sometimes. My mother told Kailey to ask, "Mommy are you having twins". Then she asked me "Mommy am I going to be jelous?" What is wrong with this woman. Who puts these preconcieved notions in a childs head? Just let it go. We are trying to get her pumped about the coming of Baby #2 and my mom is trying to get us into the terrible end of what that might bring.
So I decided that on a better note this is a HAPPY time and I can't let people be bringing me down. I also can't let people be running over me and screaming and yelling at me like they are the only reason in life at which I have to live! So I am getting back to what is Important. I hope my real friends will throw me a nice baby shower ;-), and I hope that we find out soon what we are having.
The end is the end.
So. I tried to call my "friend" Anna yesterday, apparently she is being a big ass Titty baby, cause she is taking this whole situation that SHE created and blaming it all on me. She whined and cried in my truck on Saturday night saying that I didn't call her back ects... enough... or as much as she would have liked me to.
So... I didn't know I had to call her all the time. I didn't know that if I called her back I must leave a voice mail for the past 2 years I have never left but 2 voice mails and both were joking voice mails, not even anything!
So apparently I decide yesterday I will give her a call. Act like nothing ever happened since I wasn't the blame for the fight and I was not involved I was not about to get in on it. She didn't answer, which is not untypical as her phone gets no service out where she lives at.. for some odd reason. So when I call it goes to voice mail, and since she cried and asked why I didn't leave a voice mail (which in my mind is totally stupid cause I have never "HAD" to leave a voice mail.) I don't work 7 days a week.. and I am easy to get hold of. I answer my phone every time and I don't have any problems with it.
I leave her a voice mail yesterday and she eventually gets it and sends me a message on Face book... the message reads "Hey I got your call I'm just not much in a talking mood this week. Sorry."
My reply was: "Well, that's cool. If you wanna quit talking to me let me know that is fine. I am bigger than a spat between my cousin and my friend, and if in the end that is all it takes to ruin our friendship then there never was one. And I hate that. (My real feelings by the way... not drama just what I really feel!)
When you see info in (parenthesis) that is what I am thinking about the crap she wrote me, and by the way this was not said to my face.. or over the phone it was posted on Face book in a private message cause apparently someone doesn't have the balls to talk to what they claimed was their friend.
Anna's Reply:
That is dramatic.. trust me I say what I am thinking, no problem. I think I have a right as a grown person to say that I don't feel like talking sometimes, (really after whining in my car that NO ONE CALLS YOU ENOUGH) which is what I said. besides, i didn't hear the call, I saw the call had come in previously and got a message I'm very busy with many many things other than spats with friends! (Really I didn't have a spat you threw a bitch fit in my car cause you decided you weren't getting enough attention who does that? That is just weird!) I'm run ragged most weeks now and quite honestly don't feel like dealing with anything else right now except work and family. Taking a break after an incident is a normal and rational way to handle something. (really well since I didn't do anything it is a weird and bitchy way to treat your Friend) It is better than forcing the topic and staying upset. (hmm... I wasn't going to even talk about the topic! I didn't know bitch was gonna take it out on me, over something I had nothing to do with!)
My reply:
K Whatever. You know Anna I think I am done. I don't need a whinny needy friend I need a real friend. Sorry you can't be that. I didn't have a spat, I had nothing to do with it and you are taking it out on me! So you know I think I am better off without all that! (I am pregnant and in my truck she insisted on yelling and pounding her fist on the dash! She yelled at me as if her argument that she started was my fault!)
Anna's Reply to that:
wow, just wow. Never wonder again why you don't have a lot of friends. (hmm I may not have a lot of friends... but you only had one! So I am pretty sure now you have none). geez. I have a real life, a busy life, (oh really then why were you SO upset that I wasn't calling you every waking moment, also I work a job as well you aren't talking to a jobless person, been working longer than you... I mean this is your first job in years... I think 9 to be exact almost 10.) and I wont be controlled by someone else's expectations of what I should be doing at all times. (OK now I don't know what she is talking about? All times... no one said anything about all times, swear this is not the Anna I know and she is fucking Psycho maybe she needs a trip to lake shore). That is overly controlling and ridiculous. (what? the fact that I refuse to have a person in my life who takes out her crazy mistakes on me when I am willing to just let the ruined night (that she ruined) go? Or I was until she drug it out like a crazy person) Needy, you're the one having a freak out b/c I didn't feel like talking once in like 2 years. My God. Is that not the definition of "needy" and "whiny" (No, you were being a bitch saying you didn't feel like talking this week! that is not once that is a decision you have made to be a bitch. After having a controlling melt down in my car crying expecting me to call you every freaking day answer my phone, which i did, and stay on it as long as you wanted to and then get off when you feel like... not when I have to or need to! Now doesn't that sound weird to everyone else?) I wasn't whining, I stated that I wasn't in a talking mood. Whiny is going on and on about, saying I'm taking stuff out on you, saying hate full sharp comments like "I'm done" and "I'm better off without all that!" reread my messages and tell me exactly where I said anything like those comments that you Ive kept it neutral. The things you're saying right now are the kind of comments that you complain about buddy making to you all the time.
(Umm what? No. Buddy doesn't decide he is going to be mad at me over a spat with someone else! The kind of comments I made to you were the kind that pissed off people make to crazy bitches when the crazy bitch decides to yell at them in their vehicle with no reason to, I have the right to be mad you on the other hand started a fight in my car out of complete disrespect, not with me but with another woman that you expected me to be able to control? You are 30 years old grow up!)
Him expecting you to answer his text, etc. All the time.. yet you do the same things... the very things you complain about in other people. You don't have to talk to me anymore, I'm not gonna have a meltdown, or freak out about it.Whatever suits you, you just roll with that. (I didn't expect you to call me back, I honestly didn't expect you to be a bitch and send me some snide remarks about how you don't feel like talking THIS WEEK either)
What I said to Anna:
You know Anna here is what you said " With many many things other than spats with friends." YOU ARE the only one who had a spat. (not me) I had nothing. I don't even know why you are mad at me. And the other night you were complaining I didn't call you enough or return your calls and now it is fine that you do it to me. I'm not demanding anything. I just am not gonna sit and be upset because my "friend" is mad at me over a spat between her and someone else that I had nothing to do with. My real friend wouldn't blame a situation between two adults that I had nothing to do with on me. I guess you learn who your real friends are in the end.
So she never replied back after that. I am sure she has flipped her lid, and she thinks that yelling at me over something that I didn't do is cool and the way anyone else would have treated her in the event it had been one of her family members. But I think as Adults, you can't control what another Adult chooses to say. Weather they are your family, or friends you can't make them mind you they aren't children! They have minds of their own. I would love some feed back if anyone actually reads this.. I mean it would be nice to get an outsiders Idea on what I have done wrong. Or hell even what is going on cause I am literally confused... hormonal and upset by the whole situation. It will pass and I will never talk to her again because you just don't go back after a stupid crazy spell like this.
Plus I wont have friends who start arguments in my car because they cant just let a drunk girl run her mouth cause that is what drunks do they say stupid shit and do stupid shit... my cousin was drunk and though she has never offended anyone with her weird drunken behaviors before she struck a nerve with Anna and Anna yelled at her. She didn't stop there, she continued for over an hour. With a drunk person who couldn't reason if you wanted them to!
Not only that but she yelled at me and pounded her fists on my dash of my truck (and she wasn't even drunk folks) because she was pissed cause I didn't say nothing to Erin, but I had asked them both to stop, and they were both disrespectful yelling at each other threatening each other ects. They are 30-years-old and 25-years-old. One is family the other is a friend of 2-years (whom is older and should be wiser than my cousin).
So I don't know what to think. I figured let it go Sunday, and any other adult would have cooled down by Monday and let it go... that is what I did until "Miss I don't feel like talking this WEEK" sent me a snide message on Face book. I honestly wished I had never replied.
I have to send her an email now, so I can make arrangements to come up and get my crap out of her barn. I don't even want to go back up there but honestly it is stupid that I leave me stuff up there when it is my stuff and I am not going to forgive her at this point. Because in my opinion there was nothing to forgive on OUR parts, and we should have continued like normal. But she wants to be all weird and bitchy so I am not the type of person who wants that kind of friend. I like friends who know how to treat their friend, who know when their friend has done something and when they haven't and who also knows when a friend can be totally psychic and when they can't.
I have never been psychic... never claimed to be either. Well my cousin Erin came over yesterday to cheer me up. She isn't mad at me and Anna was my friend not hers... she didn't feel the need to take that out on me.
I guess this is what I get for Helping Anna out, watching her kids, traveling to help her family out when she asked. Doing things to help her out with her dad. Fund raising for causes she was for. I mean what kind of a friend is that. I know I was just a horrible awful friend.. who deserved to be yelled at.. and treated like crap. Who deserved to drive out of her way for many things. I am just bad.
So... I didn't know I had to call her all the time. I didn't know that if I called her back I must leave a voice mail for the past 2 years I have never left but 2 voice mails and both were joking voice mails, not even anything!
So apparently I decide yesterday I will give her a call. Act like nothing ever happened since I wasn't the blame for the fight and I was not involved I was not about to get in on it. She didn't answer, which is not untypical as her phone gets no service out where she lives at.. for some odd reason. So when I call it goes to voice mail, and since she cried and asked why I didn't leave a voice mail (which in my mind is totally stupid cause I have never "HAD" to leave a voice mail.) I don't work 7 days a week.. and I am easy to get hold of. I answer my phone every time and I don't have any problems with it.
I leave her a voice mail yesterday and she eventually gets it and sends me a message on Face book... the message reads "Hey I got your call I'm just not much in a talking mood this week. Sorry."
My reply was: "Well, that's cool. If you wanna quit talking to me let me know that is fine. I am bigger than a spat between my cousin and my friend, and if in the end that is all it takes to ruin our friendship then there never was one. And I hate that. (My real feelings by the way... not drama just what I really feel!)
When you see info in (parenthesis) that is what I am thinking about the crap she wrote me, and by the way this was not said to my face.. or over the phone it was posted on Face book in a private message cause apparently someone doesn't have the balls to talk to what they claimed was their friend.
Anna's Reply:
That is dramatic.. trust me I say what I am thinking, no problem. I think I have a right as a grown person to say that I don't feel like talking sometimes, (really after whining in my car that NO ONE CALLS YOU ENOUGH) which is what I said. besides, i didn't hear the call, I saw the call had come in previously and got a message I'm very busy with many many things other than spats with friends! (Really I didn't have a spat you threw a bitch fit in my car cause you decided you weren't getting enough attention who does that? That is just weird!) I'm run ragged most weeks now and quite honestly don't feel like dealing with anything else right now except work and family. Taking a break after an incident is a normal and rational way to handle something. (really well since I didn't do anything it is a weird and bitchy way to treat your Friend) It is better than forcing the topic and staying upset. (hmm... I wasn't going to even talk about the topic! I didn't know bitch was gonna take it out on me, over something I had nothing to do with!)
My reply:
K Whatever. You know Anna I think I am done. I don't need a whinny needy friend I need a real friend. Sorry you can't be that. I didn't have a spat, I had nothing to do with it and you are taking it out on me! So you know I think I am better off without all that! (I am pregnant and in my truck she insisted on yelling and pounding her fist on the dash! She yelled at me as if her argument that she started was my fault!)
Anna's Reply to that:
wow, just wow. Never wonder again why you don't have a lot of friends. (hmm I may not have a lot of friends... but you only had one! So I am pretty sure now you have none). geez. I have a real life, a busy life, (oh really then why were you SO upset that I wasn't calling you every waking moment, also I work a job as well you aren't talking to a jobless person, been working longer than you... I mean this is your first job in years... I think 9 to be exact almost 10.) and I wont be controlled by someone else's expectations of what I should be doing at all times. (OK now I don't know what she is talking about? All times... no one said anything about all times, swear this is not the Anna I know and she is fucking Psycho maybe she needs a trip to lake shore). That is overly controlling and ridiculous. (what? the fact that I refuse to have a person in my life who takes out her crazy mistakes on me when I am willing to just let the ruined night (that she ruined) go? Or I was until she drug it out like a crazy person) Needy, you're the one having a freak out b/c I didn't feel like talking once in like 2 years. My God. Is that not the definition of "needy" and "whiny" (No, you were being a bitch saying you didn't feel like talking this week! that is not once that is a decision you have made to be a bitch. After having a controlling melt down in my car crying expecting me to call you every freaking day answer my phone, which i did, and stay on it as long as you wanted to and then get off when you feel like... not when I have to or need to! Now doesn't that sound weird to everyone else?) I wasn't whining, I stated that I wasn't in a talking mood. Whiny is going on and on about, saying I'm taking stuff out on you, saying hate full sharp comments like "I'm done" and "I'm better off without all that!" reread my messages and tell me exactly where I said anything like those comments that you Ive kept it neutral. The things you're saying right now are the kind of comments that you complain about buddy making to you all the time.
(Umm what? No. Buddy doesn't decide he is going to be mad at me over a spat with someone else! The kind of comments I made to you were the kind that pissed off people make to crazy bitches when the crazy bitch decides to yell at them in their vehicle with no reason to, I have the right to be mad you on the other hand started a fight in my car out of complete disrespect, not with me but with another woman that you expected me to be able to control? You are 30 years old grow up!)
Him expecting you to answer his text, etc. All the time.. yet you do the same things... the very things you complain about in other people. You don't have to talk to me anymore, I'm not gonna have a meltdown, or freak out about it.Whatever suits you, you just roll with that. (I didn't expect you to call me back, I honestly didn't expect you to be a bitch and send me some snide remarks about how you don't feel like talking THIS WEEK either)
What I said to Anna:
You know Anna here is what you said " With many many things other than spats with friends." YOU ARE the only one who had a spat. (not me) I had nothing. I don't even know why you are mad at me. And the other night you were complaining I didn't call you enough or return your calls and now it is fine that you do it to me. I'm not demanding anything. I just am not gonna sit and be upset because my "friend" is mad at me over a spat between her and someone else that I had nothing to do with. My real friend wouldn't blame a situation between two adults that I had nothing to do with on me. I guess you learn who your real friends are in the end.
I'm very busy all the time to, but many days while at work I made time for my friend because I'm a real friend.
So she never replied back after that. I am sure she has flipped her lid, and she thinks that yelling at me over something that I didn't do is cool and the way anyone else would have treated her in the event it had been one of her family members. But I think as Adults, you can't control what another Adult chooses to say. Weather they are your family, or friends you can't make them mind you they aren't children! They have minds of their own. I would love some feed back if anyone actually reads this.. I mean it would be nice to get an outsiders Idea on what I have done wrong. Or hell even what is going on cause I am literally confused... hormonal and upset by the whole situation. It will pass and I will never talk to her again because you just don't go back after a stupid crazy spell like this.
Plus I wont have friends who start arguments in my car because they cant just let a drunk girl run her mouth cause that is what drunks do they say stupid shit and do stupid shit... my cousin was drunk and though she has never offended anyone with her weird drunken behaviors before she struck a nerve with Anna and Anna yelled at her. She didn't stop there, she continued for over an hour. With a drunk person who couldn't reason if you wanted them to!
Not only that but she yelled at me and pounded her fists on my dash of my truck (and she wasn't even drunk folks) because she was pissed cause I didn't say nothing to Erin, but I had asked them both to stop, and they were both disrespectful yelling at each other threatening each other ects. They are 30-years-old and 25-years-old. One is family the other is a friend of 2-years (whom is older and should be wiser than my cousin).
So I don't know what to think. I figured let it go Sunday, and any other adult would have cooled down by Monday and let it go... that is what I did until "Miss I don't feel like talking this WEEK" sent me a snide message on Face book. I honestly wished I had never replied.
I have to send her an email now, so I can make arrangements to come up and get my crap out of her barn. I don't even want to go back up there but honestly it is stupid that I leave me stuff up there when it is my stuff and I am not going to forgive her at this point. Because in my opinion there was nothing to forgive on OUR parts, and we should have continued like normal. But she wants to be all weird and bitchy so I am not the type of person who wants that kind of friend. I like friends who know how to treat their friend, who know when their friend has done something and when they haven't and who also knows when a friend can be totally psychic and when they can't.
I have never been psychic... never claimed to be either. Well my cousin Erin came over yesterday to cheer me up. She isn't mad at me and Anna was my friend not hers... she didn't feel the need to take that out on me.
I guess this is what I get for Helping Anna out, watching her kids, traveling to help her family out when she asked. Doing things to help her out with her dad. Fund raising for causes she was for. I mean what kind of a friend is that. I know I was just a horrible awful friend.. who deserved to be yelled at.. and treated like crap. Who deserved to drive out of her way for many things. I am just bad.
Monday, April 18, 2011
THE WEEKEND SUCKED
So, Friday I could have went to Carol Ann's Party at the Crown and Goose, but instead, so my friend and my cousin and her cousins could have a good time I decided hey I will be nice and drive them all on Saturday night.
So Friday I did nothing but lay around the house and clean... that was about it. Saturday I finished cleaning got ready in a hurry and my cousin Erin and I took care of all kinds of stuff before going out. Erin started drinking to early, but it was her birthday and that is what she wanted to do. Now all these girls didn't have a birthday on this specific day... they all had birthday's in April though and it was to go out for that reason for EVERYONE not just Erin.
Erin is obnoxious, especially when drunk. She says and does things not meaning to offend anyone and yet she did... she offended Anna and I got yelled at for it. But before all that we were at a drag show and we were all hanging out having a good time. Erin and Anna had went down stairs and when they came back Anna told me about how Erin had told some gay guys that she was her date and they had been dating for 6 months or some crazy crap. We went out side to smoke, and everything seemed great. We went down Stairs to get pizza, and that is when things turned south. I wasn't feeling well at this point, and a Migraine had set in. I was having a good time then though. But then everyone decided they were going to leave. Brandi, Laura, Ashley, Devon and Tiffany were leaving to go to Cotton Eyed Joe. Stephanie and the couple that was with her were going to the Joe to. Anna Erin and I left to take Anna back to her car cause that is what Anna wanted to do.
So I was driving Anna, back to her car, and she finally BLEW up at Erin, Erin called her a Blond Bitch and had been joking around about how she is an alcoholic, but she was drunk, she had been repeating herself all night. But instead of say "hey Erin that is annoying I don't want no trouble please don't call me that anymore" Anna waited till we were all stuck in the car and JUST WENT OFF. Which really was fine with me if that was how she wanted to handle it, but I was not getting involved this is my cousin, and that is my best friend.
These two ladies are both adults, 25 and 30 years old! These are not Teenagers. I can't control them weather they are adults or Teenagers and I can't make either of them happy. My friend Anna is mad at me because of the way my boyfriend acts with her. Which is how he acts with everyone but Erin. He hasn't got a problem with any of these people, he just isn't a people person.
He don't talk to people, unless he is drinking, but Erin is up in his face and she lived with us for a long time when she first moved here from AZ and he had to get use to her and he got real comfortable with her being around so he is very much like he is with me with her.
So Erin and Anna fought for like over an hour. I got yelled at for allowing my cousin to talk to Anna the way she did, but you know what I DON"T CONTROL MY COUSINS MOUTH! I was not OK with the situation but out of DIS-RESPECT for me both continued to fight in my vehicle! They didn't give to shits and I voiced my opinion with Erin about that on the way home! I didn't appreciate Anna yelling at me in the truck as if I had done something to just totally ruin her night! I didn't do shit. Her attitude and the way she chose to handle ERIN were the problem. Erin's Attitude and the way she kept acting were the other end of the problem! Neither of which I have any control. So how did this all become my fault? Not sure.
I got yelled at, I finally slammed on my brakes threw it in park and I was like
LOOK HERE YOU TWO ARE FUCKING ADULTS, YOU KNOW WHY I AM ALLOWING YALL TO TALK TO EACH OTHER LIKE THIS BECAUSE I HAVE NO FUCKING CONTROL OVER WHAT FALLS OUT OF YOUR FUCKING MOUTHS I DID NOTHING AND I AM NOT GETTING IN THE MIDDLE OF IT. (these were not my exact words, it was almost 2am and I was tired).)
This didn't make them stop, out of disrespect they continued to fight, ERIN running her mouth.... and Anna counteracting what she said. You know I have never thought of Anna as being one to dirty fight, especially with her words, but she finally just told Erin that she was Successful, Married, and had 4 kids and she was just jealous of all of that! I thought this was just DIRTY, I am sorry but no one cares bout all that. I don't go around spitting on people who ain't got all that especially people who are already down and out, which would be some of the random things Erin went on about. I have a great job, I feel successful but I would never throw that in any ones face. I don't care if I felt they deserved it or not. That made me offended a bit I am not married.... but I don't want to be. I could have gotten married many times to buddy, but I chose not to. So what does that say about me in my friends eyes? I also don't want 4 kids! I will settle for 2 and remain unmarried.
I love my friend Anna, but if she is willing to take one night and make it into something I did wrong I am sorry that one night is all it takes to take away a friendship of many years, and especially over something I had nothing to do with.
Sorry I didn't stand up for you and scream and yell at my cousin, I know you are 30 years old so I assumed you were able to do that for yourself (which you did for quite a period before you yelled at me) Sorry I didn't raise your hand for you when they asked at the club who all had a birthday... I can't make that happen for you. I hung out with you I didn't let you feel left out or like you weren't equal to all my other accompanying friends. Actually I didn't really hang out with any of the other girls that came! So I did my part as your friend by not blowing you off. So I am sorry that you feel that I am a shitty friend! I hope you realize this one day and we can be good friends again. But until then I honestly just don't need stress, I am tired, wore out, and this Pregnancy is whooping my ass, I didn't even need to be out that night, but I went cause I wanted to have a good time with my friends, which would have happened but couldn't so I am sorry that my cousin Erin Offended you but I have nothing more to be sorry about! As I did nothing wrong!
So Friday I did nothing but lay around the house and clean... that was about it. Saturday I finished cleaning got ready in a hurry and my cousin Erin and I took care of all kinds of stuff before going out. Erin started drinking to early, but it was her birthday and that is what she wanted to do. Now all these girls didn't have a birthday on this specific day... they all had birthday's in April though and it was to go out for that reason for EVERYONE not just Erin.
Erin is obnoxious, especially when drunk. She says and does things not meaning to offend anyone and yet she did... she offended Anna and I got yelled at for it. But before all that we were at a drag show and we were all hanging out having a good time. Erin and Anna had went down stairs and when they came back Anna told me about how Erin had told some gay guys that she was her date and they had been dating for 6 months or some crazy crap. We went out side to smoke, and everything seemed great. We went down Stairs to get pizza, and that is when things turned south. I wasn't feeling well at this point, and a Migraine had set in. I was having a good time then though. But then everyone decided they were going to leave. Brandi, Laura, Ashley, Devon and Tiffany were leaving to go to Cotton Eyed Joe. Stephanie and the couple that was with her were going to the Joe to. Anna Erin and I left to take Anna back to her car cause that is what Anna wanted to do.
So I was driving Anna, back to her car, and she finally BLEW up at Erin, Erin called her a Blond Bitch and had been joking around about how she is an alcoholic, but she was drunk, she had been repeating herself all night. But instead of say "hey Erin that is annoying I don't want no trouble please don't call me that anymore" Anna waited till we were all stuck in the car and JUST WENT OFF. Which really was fine with me if that was how she wanted to handle it, but I was not getting involved this is my cousin, and that is my best friend.
These two ladies are both adults, 25 and 30 years old! These are not Teenagers. I can't control them weather they are adults or Teenagers and I can't make either of them happy. My friend Anna is mad at me because of the way my boyfriend acts with her. Which is how he acts with everyone but Erin. He hasn't got a problem with any of these people, he just isn't a people person.
He don't talk to people, unless he is drinking, but Erin is up in his face and she lived with us for a long time when she first moved here from AZ and he had to get use to her and he got real comfortable with her being around so he is very much like he is with me with her.
So Erin and Anna fought for like over an hour. I got yelled at for allowing my cousin to talk to Anna the way she did, but you know what I DON"T CONTROL MY COUSINS MOUTH! I was not OK with the situation but out of DIS-RESPECT for me both continued to fight in my vehicle! They didn't give to shits and I voiced my opinion with Erin about that on the way home! I didn't appreciate Anna yelling at me in the truck as if I had done something to just totally ruin her night! I didn't do shit. Her attitude and the way she chose to handle ERIN were the problem. Erin's Attitude and the way she kept acting were the other end of the problem! Neither of which I have any control. So how did this all become my fault? Not sure.
I got yelled at, I finally slammed on my brakes threw it in park and I was like
LOOK HERE YOU TWO ARE FUCKING ADULTS, YOU KNOW WHY I AM ALLOWING YALL TO TALK TO EACH OTHER LIKE THIS BECAUSE I HAVE NO FUCKING CONTROL OVER WHAT FALLS OUT OF YOUR FUCKING MOUTHS I DID NOTHING AND I AM NOT GETTING IN THE MIDDLE OF IT. (these were not my exact words, it was almost 2am and I was tired).)
This didn't make them stop, out of disrespect they continued to fight, ERIN running her mouth.... and Anna counteracting what she said. You know I have never thought of Anna as being one to dirty fight, especially with her words, but she finally just told Erin that she was Successful, Married, and had 4 kids and she was just jealous of all of that! I thought this was just DIRTY, I am sorry but no one cares bout all that. I don't go around spitting on people who ain't got all that especially people who are already down and out, which would be some of the random things Erin went on about. I have a great job, I feel successful but I would never throw that in any ones face. I don't care if I felt they deserved it or not. That made me offended a bit I am not married.... but I don't want to be. I could have gotten married many times to buddy, but I chose not to. So what does that say about me in my friends eyes? I also don't want 4 kids! I will settle for 2 and remain unmarried.
I love my friend Anna, but if she is willing to take one night and make it into something I did wrong I am sorry that one night is all it takes to take away a friendship of many years, and especially over something I had nothing to do with.
Sorry I didn't stand up for you and scream and yell at my cousin, I know you are 30 years old so I assumed you were able to do that for yourself (which you did for quite a period before you yelled at me) Sorry I didn't raise your hand for you when they asked at the club who all had a birthday... I can't make that happen for you. I hung out with you I didn't let you feel left out or like you weren't equal to all my other accompanying friends. Actually I didn't really hang out with any of the other girls that came! So I did my part as your friend by not blowing you off. So I am sorry that you feel that I am a shitty friend! I hope you realize this one day and we can be good friends again. But until then I honestly just don't need stress, I am tired, wore out, and this Pregnancy is whooping my ass, I didn't even need to be out that night, but I went cause I wanted to have a good time with my friends, which would have happened but couldn't so I am sorry that my cousin Erin Offended you but I have nothing more to be sorry about! As I did nothing wrong!
Friday, April 8, 2011
Working on a friday BLARR BLARRRRRR
So, I am at work again, but it is a Friday, I wanted to sleep in but this morning I got up and had to jump in the shower dry heaving, because Buddy ate all the cereal and I hadn't gotten up early enough to eat before the hunger-aches started.
I went to Bimbos and grabbed food and drinks. I hurried to work and got to class and we are now on Lunch break.
I went to Bimbos and grabbed food and drinks. I hurried to work and got to class and we are now on Lunch break.
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
UGH the life of a pregnant woman with a family
So, being pregnant, I hate it.... well this part of it. I can not stand being sick to my stomach ALL the time. It feels like a life sentence of agony. I just about can't take it. I have always been a pretty strong person but this child is my kryptonite. I am always nauseous but I fight it horribly which makes it worse. But I have been successful so far.
Buddy made him a Kailey dinner last night, I couldn't stomach the sight of it. I had to stay far away from their food. IT was pork and I am overwhelmed with discuss for pork right now. Just thinking about it gags me. UGH pork.
I need to straighten myself out. I am sooo tired, I can't seem to get awake. NO MATTER how much sleep I get I am still equally awfully exhausted. Buddy keeps saying you need to go to bed early... you need to do something about that. But I have been and nothing is working. I am horribly tired and sick to my stomach.
Things are not going to great for my cousin Erin, and I am worried about her daughter Emily. DHS has been called on them 1 to many times. It is getting out of hand. If it is not her mother doing it, it is her boyfriends x-wife. Which is really stupid.
So now DHS has placed Emily in the Temporary Custody of Erin's Father ED, until some issues are worked out. I helped Erin get her own Apartment, I helped her get a car which she didn't keep insurance on and wrecked but still got some money back on it, but didn't get another car. I love my cousin Erin and have done a lot for her. I am worried her mother and father will seek custody of Emily. I offered Emily a place to stay in the event that things start getting sketchy with Erin's parents. I by no means want anyone Else's children. I also do not think that your children should be snatched from you over people calling DHS every 5 minutes trying to get one up on you.
Emily is a very good kid, she is a sweet child, who isn't abused, or neglected. She doesn't deserve to be yanked out of Erin's house because of Wes and his X not getting along. She did this so she may seek full custody of her 2 children, so that Wes may pay full child support and she wont have to work.
I have been telling Erin to get away from Wes since Emily was born and Chasity started calling DHS. I told her it was not just Wes's children who were in danger it was Emily to. So she moved into her own apartment and Wes moved right in with her. I told her not to allow it and now she is paying the ultimate price having her daughter taken away from her.
Buddy says we wont get involved cause we have our own daughter to worry about and he doesn't want Erin's family to retaliate on us with DHS, as they have done with Erin aswell. I told him DHS doesn't have to tell Erin's Family where Emily is going. And as long as Erin doesn't say anything Emily will be fine, and no one will know we have her. So it is all good.
Erin has 3 weeks to follow DHS advice and do as they say in order to get Emily back. So she has taken the first few steps. Now she has to wait for her apointment and interview. Once she gets Emily back she is going to change her whole life starting with Wes on the out's of it. She deserves soo much more.
Honestly her mother needs to be shot as Erin and Danny are about the most Nieve people I have ever met and they don't know their Ass's from a whole in the ground. All Danny knows is Shelter and DRUG use and all Erin Knows is how to listen to other people and follow directions. She has learned a lot since moving back to TN but I have had to pull her out of a lot of tight spots. I love her or I wouldn't do it. I don't complain I just do it. And I wouldn't do it if I didn't want to.
Buddy made him a Kailey dinner last night, I couldn't stomach the sight of it. I had to stay far away from their food. IT was pork and I am overwhelmed with discuss for pork right now. Just thinking about it gags me. UGH pork.
I need to straighten myself out. I am sooo tired, I can't seem to get awake. NO MATTER how much sleep I get I am still equally awfully exhausted. Buddy keeps saying you need to go to bed early... you need to do something about that. But I have been and nothing is working. I am horribly tired and sick to my stomach.
Things are not going to great for my cousin Erin, and I am worried about her daughter Emily. DHS has been called on them 1 to many times. It is getting out of hand. If it is not her mother doing it, it is her boyfriends x-wife. Which is really stupid.
So now DHS has placed Emily in the Temporary Custody of Erin's Father ED, until some issues are worked out. I helped Erin get her own Apartment, I helped her get a car which she didn't keep insurance on and wrecked but still got some money back on it, but didn't get another car. I love my cousin Erin and have done a lot for her. I am worried her mother and father will seek custody of Emily. I offered Emily a place to stay in the event that things start getting sketchy with Erin's parents. I by no means want anyone Else's children. I also do not think that your children should be snatched from you over people calling DHS every 5 minutes trying to get one up on you.
Emily is a very good kid, she is a sweet child, who isn't abused, or neglected. She doesn't deserve to be yanked out of Erin's house because of Wes and his X not getting along. She did this so she may seek full custody of her 2 children, so that Wes may pay full child support and she wont have to work.
I have been telling Erin to get away from Wes since Emily was born and Chasity started calling DHS. I told her it was not just Wes's children who were in danger it was Emily to. So she moved into her own apartment and Wes moved right in with her. I told her not to allow it and now she is paying the ultimate price having her daughter taken away from her.
Buddy says we wont get involved cause we have our own daughter to worry about and he doesn't want Erin's family to retaliate on us with DHS, as they have done with Erin aswell. I told him DHS doesn't have to tell Erin's Family where Emily is going. And as long as Erin doesn't say anything Emily will be fine, and no one will know we have her. So it is all good.
Erin has 3 weeks to follow DHS advice and do as they say in order to get Emily back. So she has taken the first few steps. Now she has to wait for her apointment and interview. Once she gets Emily back she is going to change her whole life starting with Wes on the out's of it. She deserves soo much more.
Honestly her mother needs to be shot as Erin and Danny are about the most Nieve people I have ever met and they don't know their Ass's from a whole in the ground. All Danny knows is Shelter and DRUG use and all Erin Knows is how to listen to other people and follow directions. She has learned a lot since moving back to TN but I have had to pull her out of a lot of tight spots. I love her or I wouldn't do it. I don't complain I just do it. And I wouldn't do it if I didn't want to.
Monday, April 4, 2011
UGH, so tired... pregnancy is not my strong suit
So, the weekend took it's toll on me. Having my feet done and being pregnant is too much on my body. Just walking exhausts me and I feel like no one understands that I am just too tired.
I didn't get any sleep on Saturday night, sunday morning I was emotional as HELL.... I felt bad for anyone who had to live around me but it didn't help that buddy was being a jerk and adding insult to injury... he cussed and fought with me about everything. This doesn't help... just walk away... don't continue to run your mouth at me saying insulting things thinking it is going to shut me up cause you done poked a bear that you don't wanna deal with!
I am soo tired today even though I took a nap yesterday and still went to bed early. I was brought a basket of Laundry yesterday and told I don't do anything. Maybe from now on this is the approach I will have with buddy. When he is not busy doing anything and he is just lazying on the couch I will bring him a basket of laundry and be like... HERE you never do anything so here is you some laundry to do. Or maybe I will do it with the garbage depends on what mood I am in.
Today I am craving Italian food, I am going to go to Gondolier for lunch. MMMMM.. som Alfredo is great. No joke. Tess and Tom are going to go with me I can't wait for lunch.
I didn't get any sleep on Saturday night, sunday morning I was emotional as HELL.... I felt bad for anyone who had to live around me but it didn't help that buddy was being a jerk and adding insult to injury... he cussed and fought with me about everything. This doesn't help... just walk away... don't continue to run your mouth at me saying insulting things thinking it is going to shut me up cause you done poked a bear that you don't wanna deal with!
I am soo tired today even though I took a nap yesterday and still went to bed early. I was brought a basket of Laundry yesterday and told I don't do anything. Maybe from now on this is the approach I will have with buddy. When he is not busy doing anything and he is just lazying on the couch I will bring him a basket of laundry and be like... HERE you never do anything so here is you some laundry to do. Or maybe I will do it with the garbage depends on what mood I am in.
Today I am craving Italian food, I am going to go to Gondolier for lunch. MMMMM.. som Alfredo is great. No joke. Tess and Tom are going to go with me I can't wait for lunch.
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