So this week hsa been uneventful. Monday I cleaned all the laundry but a load. I have folded all of it, rearranged closets, picked up toys, and pretty much stayed in the house.
Yesterday (tuesday) I ran out to Tractor Supply to take back Buddy's jacket I bought, it was a bit small, and not the style he liked. So I got my money back and he can go get what he wants.
I ran to walmart to try to get my tires ballanced and rotated but they were packed. I meant to go back today and well I forgot. So I am going to try to go back today at some point. I woke up late anyways, I am slow to get ready in the mornings unless I have somewhere I just need to be.
I am totally tired and bored. I am going to try to clean the house again today and make some dinner before buddy gets home. Hopefully I will make it to get the balance and rotation.
The house is not a disaster area but it does need some picking up and cleaning up. I wish I had a magic wand to make it stay cleaned. If only I could get that man and that little girl to keep their stuff picked up. It would be nice! :-) So these are the days of my life! SOO BORING.
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Monday, December 27, 2010
Ok Lets play catchup again
So even though Kailey got a video from Santa that said she was on Naughty Watch she still acted out, A LOT.
On Christmas eve we cooked, drank, and took in some family and friends. There were a total of twelve people in my 3 bedroom 2 bath mobile home, luckily we have an addition on the house and we put the polar express on for the children.
My mother, father and brother were among the adults. My friend Anna and her husband were here as well, along with their herd of 4 children. Buddy and I were here with our one child. So there were plenty of adults to child ratio lol...
We drank a lot, my mother and father left at about 8pm and my brother about nine. Leland, Anna, Buddy, and I played some cards, but you could tell some were a bit too wasted to play cards he he. We had a great time and it was all pretty good. Leland and Buddy fell asleep around 10pm.
Anna and I ran somewhere, and when we came back Gabriel and Kailey had a good sugar buzz going on as they ate a Whole bunch of cupcakes (chocolate of course) all the other kids were quite and either sleeping or playing a video game.
Kailey and Gabe were relentless though they wouldn't leave us alone. Finally Anna got Leland up and they proceeded home. Since Leland hadn't drank he was driving and all was well.
Buddy gave me a beautiful necklace for Christmas! Here it is...
On Christmas eve we cooked, drank, and took in some family and friends. There were a total of twelve people in my 3 bedroom 2 bath mobile home, luckily we have an addition on the house and we put the polar express on for the children.
My mother, father and brother were among the adults. My friend Anna and her husband were here as well, along with their herd of 4 children. Buddy and I were here with our one child. So there were plenty of adults to child ratio lol...
We drank a lot, my mother and father left at about 8pm and my brother about nine. Leland, Anna, Buddy, and I played some cards, but you could tell some were a bit too wasted to play cards he he. We had a great time and it was all pretty good. Leland and Buddy fell asleep around 10pm.
Anna and I ran somewhere, and when we came back Gabriel and Kailey had a good sugar buzz going on as they ate a Whole bunch of cupcakes (chocolate of course) all the other kids were quite and either sleeping or playing a video game.
Kailey and Gabe were relentless though they wouldn't leave us alone. Finally Anna got Leland up and they proceeded home. Since Leland hadn't drank he was driving and all was well.
Buddy gave me a beautiful necklace for Christmas! Here it is...
He also got me some diamond earrings but he didn't realize after 8 years that I don't wear earrings because my left ear had its earring ripped out and I had reconstructive surgery on it. I went and got that one re- pierced on Sunday at wal-mart so I could wear the earrings, but now I have to wait 6 weeks before I can change my earrings and wear the ones he got me.
OK So I love the necklace. It is great. Best present ever you can tell he put a lot of thought into it as I don't normally wear jewelry. I was happy to go get my ear pierced. I can't wait to get my new earrings in my ear. Though they don't match the necklace, they aren't hearts I mean, they are just diamonds.
Kailey's Christmas day went well here are some videos of her opening her presents. It was funny watching her with penbo, we hid penbo till last, we put penbo in the bookshelf in another room, it was really funny cause we said, "well looks like you weren't good enough to get penbo!" she said " that is OK cause I got all this other awesome stuff anyways" and she took it like a sport.
We were really proud of the way she handled not getting penbo the penguin. Buddy and I proceeded to clean up the mess made by unwrapping the presents. Buddy walked into the other room and said "Kailey there is another present in here on the shelf, come look" she ran in there and got it and brought it back into the living room and when she opened it proceeded to yelling "penbo, SANTA BROUGHT ME PENBO!!! This is the best Christmas ever!"
The kids on Christmas eve each getting a present.
The following are Kailey on Christmas day!
So it was a great Christmas, and Anna told me the kids had a great christmas to, at the last minute we were able to pull in donated toys and stuff we bought for them and they got some good stuff. I mean seriously they had a good lot of toys a piece.
So I was relieved that Christmas went SO well, as well as Christmas eve cause I was sure that was going to be one disaster with my mother,father, and brother being here. LOL at one point Monroe, one of Anna's younger boys, came crying cause my brother wouldn't share the video game with him lol. A 27 year old man wont share a video game with a five year old. I wish I had broke the camera out for that, and the children all attacking inebriated buddy, they were hanging off of him a kid on each leg one on his back and one on each arm lol... it was a sight to see.
Buddy said he recalled the kids hitting him in the man purse, and one of them called it the nut launcher lol... but if you are going to play rough with a bunch of kids your gonna take a hit to the family jewels as well... you should expect it.
Also I am off work until next Monday so I am spending the day to get the house back into some sort of recognisable state. Then I am going to try to keep it all nice and tidy through the week so I can get a break one day hopefully. Thanks for tuning in to my blog and I hope you enjoy it.
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Kailey got a video from Santa
Message for Kailey from santa
This video above is a great gift for anyone weather a joke for an adult or a good video for the kids you incorporate personal info of your child so that santa knows just what to say watch the video above and then you can make your own! This is great. Thought I would share it with my bloggin buddies. YAY!
So yesterday Kailey watched this video after we got home. I made the video in 20 minutes and it was about 10 minutes long. She loved it. I am happy when things like this come out cause it just keeps the christmas spirit for adults and kids.
She just sat in our computer chair with her mouth opened, watching him say her name and show her, her special page in his book! She was like "he knows..." he told her she was on naughty watch. Which was hilarious. Ya ll enjoy!
So, my bonus got taxed to death, it is sad, I didn't get much of a bonus cause of uncle SAM and all his evil minions!
I hate it cause it is my family who gets ripped off by these people, they get jipped of my time and of rightful earnings.
But at least I got something I guess. I should be thankful for that. I get sad sometimes wishing I had done more with my life so that we could all have more. Then I think about how I got a really good job and it still don't cut it because of the screwy economy. A job that would have allowed a parent to stay at home back when I was being raise doesn't pay half the bill now that I am grown, and it is a very sad fact but we do without despite the fact we both work and try really hard.
I wish I could shake the depression this year, I thought above all this year would be way better than the past ones. But everyone seems to be having it hard! EVERYONE...except people who make bank and have no children.
My friend is having her share of hard times. Buried her father yesterday, and now her son is ill, not just ill but he has eye problems out of the blue, his eye was bulging out of his socket and they are taking him to the emergency room as I type. I SO hope he will be OK cause he can't see anything out of that eye and I am worried he may lose his vision
This video above is a great gift for anyone weather a joke for an adult or a good video for the kids you incorporate personal info of your child so that santa knows just what to say watch the video above and then you can make your own! This is great. Thought I would share it with my bloggin buddies. YAY!
So yesterday Kailey watched this video after we got home. I made the video in 20 minutes and it was about 10 minutes long. She loved it. I am happy when things like this come out cause it just keeps the christmas spirit for adults and kids.
She just sat in our computer chair with her mouth opened, watching him say her name and show her, her special page in his book! She was like "he knows..." he told her she was on naughty watch. Which was hilarious. Ya ll enjoy!
So, my bonus got taxed to death, it is sad, I didn't get much of a bonus cause of uncle SAM and all his evil minions!
I hate it cause it is my family who gets ripped off by these people, they get jipped of my time and of rightful earnings.
But at least I got something I guess. I should be thankful for that. I get sad sometimes wishing I had done more with my life so that we could all have more. Then I think about how I got a really good job and it still don't cut it because of the screwy economy. A job that would have allowed a parent to stay at home back when I was being raise doesn't pay half the bill now that I am grown, and it is a very sad fact but we do without despite the fact we both work and try really hard.
I wish I could shake the depression this year, I thought above all this year would be way better than the past ones. But everyone seems to be having it hard! EVERYONE...except people who make bank and have no children.
My friend is having her share of hard times. Buried her father yesterday, and now her son is ill, not just ill but he has eye problems out of the blue, his eye was bulging out of his socket and they are taking him to the emergency room as I type. I SO hope he will be OK cause he can't see anything out of that eye and I am worried he may lose his vision
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Life is funny!
OK so, my daughter is very honest apparently! I picked her up from Grammies and papaws, I asked her if she had been good, her response was "Well, No." I was like well hon it don't take an act of God and Kailey replied "I know".
We got home and I had some goodies I had received from work. One was a bag of marshmallows that had a note stapled to them that said "You've been Naughty So here's the scoop You're getting nothing but snowman poop!!" and I read it to her and told her that it was just for her.
She began to cry and she said that she hated Christmas, cause she really wanted penbo the penguin. She was genuinely upset about the whole situation and I felt bad for her. I explained to her that I was just playing and she finally quit crying and giggled.
Pretty much last night was unproductive, I had a lunch-able for dinner cause I didn't feel well all day, I had some head problems, dizziness and a headache.
So I finally got Kailey in bed and laid down on the couch, as I lay there I felt myself drift off to sleep but woke up abruptly not fully either to what sounded like the chime on my door, put there by the alarm company so we would know when the door opened and it would trigger the alarm if it were turned on. I ran to the door and it had not been opened, no fully awake I asked myself, "what is wrong with you?" I checked the door and even locked it.
I laid back down and felt this unsettled worried sort of scared feeling, now I am a person who isn't easily scared and normally doesn't have any problems of these sorts. I don't know what is wrong with me today but I know that it is just not right. I laid back down and finally went to sleep and didn't wake up again for any odd reasons.
We got home and I had some goodies I had received from work. One was a bag of marshmallows that had a note stapled to them that said "You've been Naughty So here's the scoop You're getting nothing but snowman poop!!" and I read it to her and told her that it was just for her.
She began to cry and she said that she hated Christmas, cause she really wanted penbo the penguin. She was genuinely upset about the whole situation and I felt bad for her. I explained to her that I was just playing and she finally quit crying and giggled.
Pretty much last night was unproductive, I had a lunch-able for dinner cause I didn't feel well all day, I had some head problems, dizziness and a headache.
So I finally got Kailey in bed and laid down on the couch, as I lay there I felt myself drift off to sleep but woke up abruptly not fully either to what sounded like the chime on my door, put there by the alarm company so we would know when the door opened and it would trigger the alarm if it were turned on. I ran to the door and it had not been opened, no fully awake I asked myself, "what is wrong with you?" I checked the door and even locked it.
I laid back down and felt this unsettled worried sort of scared feeling, now I am a person who isn't easily scared and normally doesn't have any problems of these sorts. I don't know what is wrong with me today but I know that it is just not right. I laid back down and finally went to sleep and didn't wake up again for any odd reasons.
Monday, December 20, 2010
17th, 18th, and 19th
OK so my snow day was boring, and I didn't do much but stay at home.
Sunday 19th
Today was spent visiting with an old friend. Michelle Martin, I have known Michelle since 7th grade, although we weren't friends in 7th grade we were in the 8th and so on. Michelle had come in from California to visit, it was awesome to get to see her again, as we hadn't seen each other in about 4 years. Last time I saw her Kailey was 7 months old and she was pregnant with Cali her daughter.
Kailey and Cali hit it off quickly and became fast friends, sneaking around doing the things Kailey does on a daily basis, just a different venue, in Michelle's moms house. The girls had a good time and were highly upset when we had to part ways. I hated that as well. Michelle and I talked about lots of stuff. She said she maybe moving back to TN so that will be nice if it happens.
After we left Michelle's we went to Wal-Mart and got some stuff, and went home, we found Jeff Snyder was there visiting with Buddy, the Pittsburgh Steelers were playing football. It was sad though cause they lost and Buddy was upset. Kailey was in bed by 9pm and Buddy and I got to have adult time we sat on the couch and watched a reality show about Sarah Palin's Alaska. We enjoy the show to some extent but some of it is a bit over the top and you know that in her normal life, before the show, she didn't do this stuff!
Pretty much that was the highlight of our evening. :-)
Saturday 18th
This morning I got a call from Anna, her father had passed away this morning after his kidneys started shutting down. It is very sad, I was sure the man was made of Steel and was going to fight his way past New Years. But I don't guess love or money will keep you alive! I feel bad for them because now they are having to grieve through the holidays! But I am glad his pain and suffering are over for him.
Today we went for our girl day at the hair salon. Kailey got her hair done, and the ladies did her finger nails with a beautiful sparkly blue! I got a pedicure for the first time ever, and had my toenails painted beautiful sparkly purple.
Today's Agenda consists of finding Santa. We went home for a while because we needed to help papaw and uncle Ronnie ( my brother) put up a new cattle fence as all the cows were getting out and it was becoming a hazard not just for the cows but for the motorists in our area. And the TVA was having a bitch fit about them coming onto their property!
Buddy went down to help instead and I stayed home with Kailey. We got ready and went to see Santa oh what fun. We stood in line for an hour and she finally got to sit on Santa's lap. She loved that part and had a long conversation with him.
While standing in line there was an elf who was doing magic tricks and juggling! She enjoyed that and even got in on a few Magic tricks.
We finally left the mall, we went home and watched the Polar express with Buddy. After the polar express was over buddy spent his time consoling Leland on the phone, and me on the phone with Anna trying to help with problem solutions. Even though we are a few hundred miles apart I WILL help solve problems if I can. With a computer at my finger tips I can contact anyone about anything!
We said a special prayer for them hoping that everything would pull through and they would have some money left over, so that they wouldn't be SO financially stressed. It is a sad fact that when a loved one dies, you not only have to deal with Emotional side of it, but the financial and physical side of it. When you have 4 small children it doesn't help especially at Christmas time which is very sad.
It almost seems as if they can't get a break no matter how they slice it, and it is very strenuous mentally on them.
Friday 17th
On Friday I went to Kailey's cheer ceremony, she got a medal (reminds you of a medal of honor) She got a ribbon and a certificate. It was cute! I then did the Mad dash back to the house to drop her off and go to the Navarro Christmas Party.
We got stuck in dead still traffic at Watt Rd where apparently 2 cars had collided on the interstate spinning one into the other lanes. Well that was just great I was going to be an hour late for this party to. And I was! I went to the party, it was not that great!
You had to buy your own alcohol, pay for your parking, and they didn't have enough table's to sit at. The food was good and they had a smokers lounge, so I liked that, especially since we were on the 26th floor (I maybe wrong about the floor, as it was at the top of the building).
So Tammy won a TV which was cool, about 4 people won TVs, then there were cameras, and gift cards. I wish I had won something. Apparently my luck has run out. I am now in the process of talking Buddy into buying the TV Tammy won from her.
Sunday 19th
Today was spent visiting with an old friend. Michelle Martin, I have known Michelle since 7th grade, although we weren't friends in 7th grade we were in the 8th and so on. Michelle had come in from California to visit, it was awesome to get to see her again, as we hadn't seen each other in about 4 years. Last time I saw her Kailey was 7 months old and she was pregnant with Cali her daughter.
Kailey and Cali hit it off quickly and became fast friends, sneaking around doing the things Kailey does on a daily basis, just a different venue, in Michelle's moms house. The girls had a good time and were highly upset when we had to part ways. I hated that as well. Michelle and I talked about lots of stuff. She said she maybe moving back to TN so that will be nice if it happens.
After we left Michelle's we went to Wal-Mart and got some stuff, and went home, we found Jeff Snyder was there visiting with Buddy, the Pittsburgh Steelers were playing football. It was sad though cause they lost and Buddy was upset. Kailey was in bed by 9pm and Buddy and I got to have adult time we sat on the couch and watched a reality show about Sarah Palin's Alaska. We enjoy the show to some extent but some of it is a bit over the top and you know that in her normal life, before the show, she didn't do this stuff!
Pretty much that was the highlight of our evening. :-)
Saturday 18th
This morning I got a call from Anna, her father had passed away this morning after his kidneys started shutting down. It is very sad, I was sure the man was made of Steel and was going to fight his way past New Years. But I don't guess love or money will keep you alive! I feel bad for them because now they are having to grieve through the holidays! But I am glad his pain and suffering are over for him.
Today we went for our girl day at the hair salon. Kailey got her hair done, and the ladies did her finger nails with a beautiful sparkly blue! I got a pedicure for the first time ever, and had my toenails painted beautiful sparkly purple.
Today's Agenda consists of finding Santa. We went home for a while because we needed to help papaw and uncle Ronnie ( my brother) put up a new cattle fence as all the cows were getting out and it was becoming a hazard not just for the cows but for the motorists in our area. And the TVA was having a bitch fit about them coming onto their property!
Buddy went down to help instead and I stayed home with Kailey. We got ready and went to see Santa oh what fun. We stood in line for an hour and she finally got to sit on Santa's lap. She loved that part and had a long conversation with him.
While standing in line there was an elf who was doing magic tricks and juggling! She enjoyed that and even got in on a few Magic tricks.
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| Kailey and Santa |
We finally left the mall, we went home and watched the Polar express with Buddy. After the polar express was over buddy spent his time consoling Leland on the phone, and me on the phone with Anna trying to help with problem solutions. Even though we are a few hundred miles apart I WILL help solve problems if I can. With a computer at my finger tips I can contact anyone about anything!
We said a special prayer for them hoping that everything would pull through and they would have some money left over, so that they wouldn't be SO financially stressed. It is a sad fact that when a loved one dies, you not only have to deal with Emotional side of it, but the financial and physical side of it. When you have 4 small children it doesn't help especially at Christmas time which is very sad.
It almost seems as if they can't get a break no matter how they slice it, and it is very strenuous mentally on them.
Friday 17th
On Friday I went to Kailey's cheer ceremony, she got a medal (reminds you of a medal of honor) She got a ribbon and a certificate. It was cute! I then did the Mad dash back to the house to drop her off and go to the Navarro Christmas Party.
We got stuck in dead still traffic at Watt Rd where apparently 2 cars had collided on the interstate spinning one into the other lanes. Well that was just great I was going to be an hour late for this party to. And I was! I went to the party, it was not that great!
You had to buy your own alcohol, pay for your parking, and they didn't have enough table's to sit at. The food was good and they had a smokers lounge, so I liked that, especially since we were on the 26th floor (I maybe wrong about the floor, as it was at the top of the building).
So Tammy won a TV which was cool, about 4 people won TVs, then there were cameras, and gift cards. I wish I had won something. Apparently my luck has run out. I am now in the process of talking Buddy into buying the TV Tammy won from her.
Thursday, December 16, 2010
Videos I couldn't upload earlier
Scrappy attacks when I try to wake up kailey
Kaileys cheer competition
Kaileys cheer competition
Another Snow day
So an update to my situation, I now love where I work a bit more, as my overhead management, at my work, has went to bat for me and my fellow Navarro employees and gotten us what we feel we deserve!
I am SO excited now and have a great appreciation and love for those 3 people!
YAY!
Earlier this morning:
So today is another day we aren't working, I made it into site but the ice was all over the boardwalk where I work and apparently was a hazard. They then shut down the site and I left and came back home.
The past day or so hasn't been so great. The ladies who are in the same company I am (there are 5 of us) and I feel cheated to no end. We are hoping that our boss's that are with another company but are still over our heads will straighten this out.
It will be nice to see them stand up for us. As they know us better than the company we work for, and actually care what happens to us. I miss the days when our whole company was one. Now we have been sold off to other companies and there are a few different companies on our site. I didn't like it when it happened but what choice did we have? Some people said if you don't like it don't do it, but that would have meant that we would not have a job! It is very sad that some people have that mentality. It would be different if we decided to go to a new company, yes that would be when we would say I don't like it so I am not going to do it!
When you have children you do what you have to do. I love the place I work, I love my co-workers, I loved the company I was with before and would give anything to just be with them again. They knew us, they took care of us, and they never let us down.
Now back to my real life. This morning when I got back there were cows out everywhere! LOL apparently my uncle billies fence is gone sat up back in the 1940's he he ... but he has decided not to help take care of anything so my brother and I are dealing with it. Although if I had known they had all the materials back in the summer my brother and I could have put up the new fencing and not be having this problem now. But my brother was too lazy as he was fishing all year instead of farming.
It seems like I come from a long line of half losers and half farmers! I got the farming jean and all the men got the lazy loser jean! It is sad but true.
I hate being trapped in the house and love to be outside. Although I have my tired lazy days to I don't just sit around and do what I want when I want. I seem to have my priorities straight most days.
I am SO excited now and have a great appreciation and love for those 3 people!
YAY!
Earlier this morning:
So today is another day we aren't working, I made it into site but the ice was all over the boardwalk where I work and apparently was a hazard. They then shut down the site and I left and came back home.
The past day or so hasn't been so great. The ladies who are in the same company I am (there are 5 of us) and I feel cheated to no end. We are hoping that our boss's that are with another company but are still over our heads will straighten this out.
It will be nice to see them stand up for us. As they know us better than the company we work for, and actually care what happens to us. I miss the days when our whole company was one. Now we have been sold off to other companies and there are a few different companies on our site. I didn't like it when it happened but what choice did we have? Some people said if you don't like it don't do it, but that would have meant that we would not have a job! It is very sad that some people have that mentality. It would be different if we decided to go to a new company, yes that would be when we would say I don't like it so I am not going to do it!
When you have children you do what you have to do. I love the place I work, I love my co-workers, I loved the company I was with before and would give anything to just be with them again. They knew us, they took care of us, and they never let us down.
Now back to my real life. This morning when I got back there were cows out everywhere! LOL apparently my uncle billies fence is gone sat up back in the 1940's he he ... but he has decided not to help take care of anything so my brother and I are dealing with it. Although if I had known they had all the materials back in the summer my brother and I could have put up the new fencing and not be having this problem now. But my brother was too lazy as he was fishing all year instead of farming.
It seems like I come from a long line of half losers and half farmers! I got the farming jean and all the men got the lazy loser jean! It is sad but true.
I hate being trapped in the house and love to be outside. Although I have my tired lazy days to I don't just sit around and do what I want when I want. I seem to have my priorities straight most days.
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
December 14th
Today at work we learned that the 5 of us out of the whole site who are Navarro Employee's will not get bonuses, not because we did anything wrong, because we failed to be employed by the "right" company. Not that we were given a choice therefore we are punished.
This is how I feel, and that is that!
What's worse is that I have put off other parts of my life to be at work. Here lately I have been taking off for one doc's appointment or two. But to be honest, it's December and THEY rescheduled my dates and messed up a week or two of my work life!
Our Department has gotten a merit and been recognised for a number of things, but I guess the 5 of us haven't! 2 of the 11 of us haven't even been there for 1 month yet (those two will get bonuses by the way cause they work for a different company)!
My family has had it hard enough, I have poured myself in to my job, I have been home late, came in early, tried to be on time at least 90% of the time. Trained 4 people in the span of a year to take over my job, while trying to keep my work in my new job caught up, taken on more responsibility and never asked more than once for someone to show me something. I catch on fast. And some of my other co-workers deserve a Bonus as well as they have went through similar situations, such as taking on more responsibility, training people, and even one stays late, comes in early, people call her at home, she barely gets a day off and for what not to even be recognised when bonuses are handed out.
This is not about my injustice, it is about OUR injustice. If the whole project gets rewarded with a BONUS check but the five of us we will be horribly pissed off! We are thankful for having a job, but were just as content with our jobs with Energx before all of this came along and screwed it all up. Our health was great, bonus every year, you could cash in your PTO and use it at christmas if you were short money.
But with the company I am with now you loose anything over 80 hours at the end of the year in PTO, there is no cashing it in, if you don't use it you lose it. The other companies out at my site allow cashing in, they allow you to keep as much as you want anything over 200 hours they cash in for you and give it to you in a check.
The other company's have given bonuses this year, or have sat dates in order to disperse them. So this has been my day pissing and moaning over a bonus.
When I should be enjoying my life, I swear some this crap is taking moments off my life I can feel it, and people wonder why I have grey hair.
I am soo tired right now, some times I wish I could quit but buddy and I are barely making it these days I wouldn't mind being a stay at home mom, I have plenty I would do if I did stay at home! My child would benifit more as she gets no education! My mother sends her home with rats nest hair and it seems that no one cares but me what she looks like.
I pray all the time that buddy will get a better job and things will look up for us, but honestly good things do not happen to good people. I try hard to back up my friends and others who are RIGHT, and I try to do what is right! I don't just look out for number one! I have agreed with people I didn't get along with just because it was right, no matter how wrong they were to me, no matter how much dislike I had for them.
It is just the RIGHT thing! I can't stand people who can't desifer what is right from what is just immoral.
Maybe I am the only one with this problem. Yes it is a problem cause I find myself struggling all the time while those who would have spit or stepped on me to get to where they needed to be do just fine. This goes the same with buddy to.
I find myself thinking I am bad luck and all that comes from me is bad! But I know I have done a lot of good, and it is not to make up for evil in my past cause there simply is none!
I never dabled in drugs or theft! I never hurt people or tore there things up just cause I didn't have any. I never did anything that was just WRONG!
I tried real hard to gain approval from numerous people and never got it, not even my own mother! All I wanted was just to do what was right and be who I was.
You don't find that much, it is rare I meet others who are the same way without motive or some kind of WANT behind their RIGHT.
So anyways on to something else!
Maybe things will change but if they don't I will be keeping my eyes opened for another job somewhere else, I am not quiting my job, but I will keep my eyes opened for something better.
My friend Anna and I got togeather tonight, she missed my birthday over the weekend and she brought me a present and a card. I will put the card on my desk at work to remind myself that one person recognises what over 500 don't!
But the coolest part is she got me a snuggie. She remembered I once said that Snuggies are the kind of thing that you don't buy yourself cause it seems odd! So you get it as a gift and it is ok!
So I got my zebra striped snuggie on while typing this post. I am awesome I got my snuggie on and I have managed to get over the loss of a bonus I feel I deserve!
Here is a pic of me enjoying my snuggie one of the many small joys in my life! I wonder if they will make the Breast Feeding snuggie for breast feeding moms? What it is a lagitimate question.
These were taken at the christmas Party over the weekend on friday. I was real stressed see the post for friday!
This is how I feel, and that is that!
What's worse is that I have put off other parts of my life to be at work. Here lately I have been taking off for one doc's appointment or two. But to be honest, it's December and THEY rescheduled my dates and messed up a week or two of my work life!
Our Department has gotten a merit and been recognised for a number of things, but I guess the 5 of us haven't! 2 of the 11 of us haven't even been there for 1 month yet (those two will get bonuses by the way cause they work for a different company)!
My family has had it hard enough, I have poured myself in to my job, I have been home late, came in early, tried to be on time at least 90% of the time. Trained 4 people in the span of a year to take over my job, while trying to keep my work in my new job caught up, taken on more responsibility and never asked more than once for someone to show me something. I catch on fast. And some of my other co-workers deserve a Bonus as well as they have went through similar situations, such as taking on more responsibility, training people, and even one stays late, comes in early, people call her at home, she barely gets a day off and for what not to even be recognised when bonuses are handed out.
This is not about my injustice, it is about OUR injustice. If the whole project gets rewarded with a BONUS check but the five of us we will be horribly pissed off! We are thankful for having a job, but were just as content with our jobs with Energx before all of this came along and screwed it all up. Our health was great, bonus every year, you could cash in your PTO and use it at christmas if you were short money.
But with the company I am with now you loose anything over 80 hours at the end of the year in PTO, there is no cashing it in, if you don't use it you lose it. The other companies out at my site allow cashing in, they allow you to keep as much as you want anything over 200 hours they cash in for you and give it to you in a check.
The other company's have given bonuses this year, or have sat dates in order to disperse them. So this has been my day pissing and moaning over a bonus.
When I should be enjoying my life, I swear some this crap is taking moments off my life I can feel it, and people wonder why I have grey hair.
I am soo tired right now, some times I wish I could quit but buddy and I are barely making it these days I wouldn't mind being a stay at home mom, I have plenty I would do if I did stay at home! My child would benifit more as she gets no education! My mother sends her home with rats nest hair and it seems that no one cares but me what she looks like.
I pray all the time that buddy will get a better job and things will look up for us, but honestly good things do not happen to good people. I try hard to back up my friends and others who are RIGHT, and I try to do what is right! I don't just look out for number one! I have agreed with people I didn't get along with just because it was right, no matter how wrong they were to me, no matter how much dislike I had for them.
It is just the RIGHT thing! I can't stand people who can't desifer what is right from what is just immoral.
Maybe I am the only one with this problem. Yes it is a problem cause I find myself struggling all the time while those who would have spit or stepped on me to get to where they needed to be do just fine. This goes the same with buddy to.
I find myself thinking I am bad luck and all that comes from me is bad! But I know I have done a lot of good, and it is not to make up for evil in my past cause there simply is none!
I never dabled in drugs or theft! I never hurt people or tore there things up just cause I didn't have any. I never did anything that was just WRONG!
I tried real hard to gain approval from numerous people and never got it, not even my own mother! All I wanted was just to do what was right and be who I was.
You don't find that much, it is rare I meet others who are the same way without motive or some kind of WANT behind their RIGHT.
So anyways on to something else!
Maybe things will change but if they don't I will be keeping my eyes opened for another job somewhere else, I am not quiting my job, but I will keep my eyes opened for something better.
My friend Anna and I got togeather tonight, she missed my birthday over the weekend and she brought me a present and a card. I will put the card on my desk at work to remind myself that one person recognises what over 500 don't!
But the coolest part is she got me a snuggie. She remembered I once said that Snuggies are the kind of thing that you don't buy yourself cause it seems odd! So you get it as a gift and it is ok!
So I got my zebra striped snuggie on while typing this post. I am awesome I got my snuggie on and I have managed to get over the loss of a bonus I feel I deserve!
Here is a pic of me enjoying my snuggie one of the many small joys in my life! I wonder if they will make the Breast Feeding snuggie for breast feeding moms? What it is a lagitimate question.
These were taken at the christmas Party over the weekend on friday. I was real stressed see the post for friday!
Monday, December 13, 2010
Today 12/13/10 Snow day
So today is a snow day, I have been up since 5a.m. contemplating what to do! I first contemplated, go to work or stay home. As going to work meant risking my daughter getting stranded at my mothers, or even worse trying to go to my mothers there are some weird roads on your way to her house, one is a road that goes down in a curve then up like a giant S.
I decided this would be a bit dangerous then found out that work was canceled anyway. So this was good news. We get paid to sit at home. I can take pictures of my little girl playing in the snow and enjoy the day just sitting at home. But then I thought... OH NO! I have no coffee, OK so this can be dealt with I can walk to the nearby gas station as soon as the sun comes up I can just walk on over.
Buddy left even though I am sure his work is closed as mine was along with other numerous places in the OR area. He finally returns home, getting paid for 2 hours just for driving in. I am glad I didn't have to drive in.
Kailey is still sleeping soundly so he and I cuddle for a while. I was honestly hoping to read a Good book. I haven't really read a book this year and I was hoping to cuddle with myself on the couch with the TV off reading a book by Leil Lowndes, or one of my chicken soup books... which I don't have enough of. I use to have a whole collection that I had read front to back 2 times.
But I love a good cuddle with my man, we may have our ups and downs, but some times it just feels like we are on the right page. After our cuddle I went to clean my truck up and run to the nearby gas station. Although our road is like a sheet of ice once you make it to the end of it 321 is always clear!
So I put on more warm clothing, take a broom and my 2 dogs and go to uncover my truck which is burried in 3 to five inches of snow. This is just my estimate.
I sweep the windshield, open the door which is surprisingly not frozen, and I start my truck. It took it a moment to start, I need to do some battery cleaning. I probably need a new battery then I can take care of the cleaning part. I will do it next pay day I think to myself.
My truck is my baby. I do my oil changes, and my brother does my brakes. I know they are done right when he does them because he double checks everything knowing his only neice is riding in it.
I go to the gas station. I get my coffee and stock up on cigarettes, grab Kailey a sprite and everyone breakfast. Then getting back to the house is the key. Since my drive is sloped getting out is not the problem. Driving back up the icy road and up my drive is though. I find it not as bad as I thought it would be. I only slid around a bit and all was controllable. Thanks the lord. I make it back to my driveway, park my truck backed up a hill, which took a little work and some speed without stopping.
I took kailey for a walk we are mailing her cousins some christmas cards with gift cards tucked away inside. Here are some pics of her putting them in the mail box.
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| Kailey opens the mailbox. |
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| She put the cards in teh box! |
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| She closed the box up! |
Kailey is excited to send the Christmas Cards
She insisted on putting them in the mailbox.
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| now she is putting the flag up! |
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| Tada! She is done! We then continued our walk around the farm. I took her down to the pond. Here are our pictures from our walk!                                |
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| View from my side door... my neighbors dog pen now blocks my view of the pond! |
Sunday, December 12, 2010
Today just another day in my life
So here are some pics and video I decided to share with my blogging friends. While I sit here and listen to my other half yell at the TV about the Pittsburgh steelers. We are watching the game.
OK I don't think the Video up loader is working so the videos wont be on here tonight.
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| My little cheer leader |
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| Yes those are two of the cutest boys from the Oak Ridge team |
Are these two little boys and girls not the cutest they were a small team from Oak Ridge
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| Little team from Oak Ridge |
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| Kailey's Team |
Now here are some more videos from today 12-12-2010 all of the above was yesterday!
So we haven't done much today, I left for about 30 minutes ran to Wal-Mart to grab one thing, ran to Bimbo's to get buddy some Full Throttles cause they are Buy 1 get one great deal. Ran to Kenjo to grab coffee.... Kenjo doesn't have a lot to offer in coffee honestly not the one here. But others have some good coffee... I found myself wishing I had went somewhere else! lol.
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| Before I got my hair and stuff done. |
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| After I got my hair done |
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| After I got it done |
OK I don't think the Video up loader is working so the videos wont be on here tonight.
This is our Turtle hanging out in the tub.. THAT IS FOOD FLOATING AROUND
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