Today

So today is my last day at work then it is the weekend. YAY. I am sitting here working to Eminem, Evanesence, Bruno Mars, and Katy Perry. Whom all seem to be on my playlist and that is it. I am tired and wore out and I went to lunch today with all my friends at work.

Sometimes this place has a way of making you feel left out in some ways, so it is always good to have the one or two friends who keep you in check. Buddy called earlier and gave me my options of Hot Dogs or Hamburgers for dinner. But to be honest I don't know how pregnant women eat cause I always have a horribly undecided stomache and I can't think of what I want to eat. SO since I am on a no pig kick because of worms ects... I don't want any hot dogs.

It is soo nasty outside, I can't stand the weather! My toes are healing up but I can't get around to well. It is soo hard to get from point A - B sometimes and other times it is just fine. I wish they would heal up 100% so I wouldn't have to worry about this.

I can't wait to find out what the baby is, I hope it is what we want if not I just hope for a healthy baby with no health issues, and no attitude problems. For some reason my offspring have no respect from birth! lol.

So I am SICK

Ugh, I am horribly sick... I am fighting off the urge to throw up at every turn. I can not stand to vomit, so I will avoid it at all costs. I am also incredibly tired, find myself falling asleep quite a bit. I feel awful. I don't know why cause last night I got lots of sleep.

I have been eating a lot, and trying to keep myself awake. I wish this were easier. I wish i werent soo tired and hungry all the time.

SO I AM PREGNANT

So we went to the doctor yesterday, and we found out I am 6 weeks pregnant, we even got an ultrasound and you cant see anything, but we are pregnant. Because of my surgery we had a lot of concerns. Dr. O'Kelley said that there wasn't much to worry about because it was in  the first trimester and baby's aren't 100% formed and growing, he said the growing stage is the one to worry about. So we are excited.

Buddy went with me to my appointment yesterday and got to watch another lady give me a vaginal ultrasound, I guess that is as close to a threesome as we are going to get, lol, I hope he liked it. He didn't get to enjoy that stuff when I was pregnant with Kailey, so hopefully he is getting to see and do things with this pregnancy that he didn't before with our first child.

So my next appointment is on Monday April 18th at 8:30 A.M. So I can't wait, I will get another ultrasound and be able to see if anything is going on new with the baby. Of course this is our last one, so we are hoping for a boy. I hope it is a boy not only because I am done having children, but I think every man should have a son. So therefore I hope it is a boy and we are done.

I am horribly tired, and sick. I want to sleep in half the day, or go to bed at like 7p.m. but that will never happen for me. I don't know why but even though I want to go to bed I go home see all the stuff their is to do and I lay awake in my bed thinking about how it needs to be done and I am the only one to do it. Now if only my mind could clean house and let me sleep. 

It was fun last night cause my cousin Erin stopped by, to check on "her baby" and get the baby momma to burn a CD. that was fun cause I burnt the CD wrong the first time so I had to discard the CD it was on... then burnt it right the second time it only took like 3 hours of my life I will never get back lol.

My nose is causing me all kinds of trouble today and I am SO worried someone is going to see something unpleasant so I am trying really hard to solve the nose problem. I can't wait until my next ultrasound. I am praying hard for a boy. Hope it is a happy healthy baby that is all that really matters. I just hope things are great. I know that they forgot to get me on prenatal vitamins yesterday when I went to see the doc. I need to get on those though they make me sick and crap I still need to be on something. Well I will keep the world posted hope everyone enjoys my blog.

3/28/11 my return to work

So this weekend was a great weekend. I took Kailey on Saturday to a friends daughters 3rd Birthday party. That was fun. Kailey was good and there was no drama. The thing about Kailey is we can go from having fun to Drama in a heart beat... so with all that said this was not one of those days.

We went back to my cousin Erin's new apartment and I talked to her into coming over to my house Emily her little girl was staying the night anyway and I knew she was bored and lonely to. So Buddy and Erin drink together. I didn't drink at all. I had a good time until people started throwing up and I started baby sitting lol.

Wes Erin's boyfriend decided that he is going to stop by, Erin is passed out and Emily goes back home with him. The next morning we get up and Erin and I run to the gas station for breakfast and cigarettes. That is nice because we ran out the night before. I am trying to quit so she and I split a pack of lights.

I eventually take Erin home so she can take care of her step children, who are due at her house any moment. I get back home and get ready cause Buddy is going to take me out to eat dinner, and do some fun stuff. We finally hit the road at about 5:30. We ended up at the lake just talking. We are both struggling with the whole quitting smoking thing.

It is a real pain in the ass. The whole not smoking. I hate that I ever picked up the habit. It was awful to start in the first place... this is like my 7th or 8th time quiting. I just hope this time it sticks, cause Buddy is quitting to. I just want it to be over. I know it takes 3 days to form a habit, but I have to stay away from those who have the habit cause it could be one step back in to the direction of failure for me if I am not careful. SO with all that said this is my blog for today.

I will be posting tomorrow with some news of the upcoming changes in my life.. So if anyone follows this blog check in tomorrow for updates ;-)

Days of bordom

So today, my friends from work are coming to take me out for the second time since surgery, the first time I got out of the house was when my brother came and got me and took me to the doctor. That was nice... to be out of the house.

My brother has come over everyday, fed and watered my dogs and my pony and goat. We are out of dog food today, so I am going to have to make arrangements to get some dog food. Buddy is working and by the time he gets off work he is too tired to get dog food.

He forgot to leave me my smokes this morning so I smoked my last two cigarettes and now have none. I knew that this was going to happen... he was outside yesterday grilling burgers with Kailey, he stayed on the phone and didn't get them out of his truck then.

I have laid up in this room for far to long, it is about time I get out of this house. I am soo sick of being stuck in and will be happy to leave Kailey is excited to cause Tom and Devon are going to take us to chinese and we are going to have a good day.

She wants Ice cream soo bad.

I have been working from home... it has been nice most people complained about logging in from home being a pain in the ass but I haven't had one problem out of it. I like it and on good days I get a lot done. it is nice. I am about to go give myself a bath so I can get ready to go. Hope everyone who reads my blog is having a good day.... I know I will be having a good one by lunch time

The horrible surgery

So as some of you may know yesterday was "THE" day I had surgery. I didn't know it was going to be this painful. My FEET hurt SO bad and the pain meds barely tip the iceberg of pain. All I gotta say is I can't wait for this to be over.

The first day... after surgery I had to go to the bathroom.. lets just say that sucked... they gave me crutches and those don't help when both feet are impaired. I then got sent home. Dad brought me home and even though there were 3 adults here no one helped me get up the steps so I was in excruciating pain from that ordeal.

Kailey's allergies are acting up, buddy got short tempered with her because she woke him up. He wouldn't listen to me so I continued to get out of bed and go take care of it myself and became horribly and painfully impaired once I got in there, I finally got done with her, and crawled back towards the bed room got exhausted and gave up.. so Buddy came to get me. He carried me back to the bed and then told me I needed to lose some weight.

I felt bad about that, and couldn't sleep, cause I was in awful pain so I cried like a baby and eventually fell asleep. At 2 am I woke up to Buddy eating chips in bed and the pain in my feet 10X worse. I took another pain pill and fell back asleep eventually and woke up this morning so I cold get my day of being in bed started.

It started off with me asking anyone.. someone to get me coffee. I don't have a pot here and well no other way to get it so I had to give my mom money and the keys to my truck to drive it to get me a coffee.

She got my coffee and brought it to me and then I couldn't get rid of her. I don't like her snooping around my house as she has been known to take things. So she is gone now and I am going to take a nap I am SO tired and the pain is SO bad.

Ill blog more later hope everyone enjoys my blogs.

The days of catching up continue...

Sometimes I wonder if women were not put here to have babies, and pick up after men. My baby knows how to pick up after herself. In most cases she will pick up her dirty laundry and take it to the laundry room. And I have to stay on her about the toys in the play room, but other than that she does a good job helping in that area.

Her daddy on the other hand is like having a large messy pet... he got up last night left a honey mess on the counter.. where he made peanut butter and honey sandwiches. Then I had to clean it up. There was a thick sticky mess on the counter top and in the cabinet where I found the honey jar opened still and a sticky mess as well.

This is going to cause an Ant Riot... something I will in turn have to deal with. Buddy has been driving my truck for the past couple weeks while his is in the repair shop after his car accident. I in turn got to drive a very nice rental car. His truck came back to him in pristine condition... clean inside other than dirt on the floor which is remnants of years of working construction.

My truck on the other hand was loaded down with full throttle cans, over a weeks worth of mail, and a whole slew of cigarette packs and 5-hour energy drinks. UGH I got up at 4:30 to be at work by 6am not 7! But here I am being put behind by a man who just don't seem to care. He is careless, he sits on his ass playing PS3 online with a bunch of other guys who I am sure have families they are being careless with.. either that or they are little boys playing as well.

So this was the aggravating start to my morning. I am having my surgery tomorrow if Noah don't come back with the ark and pick me up first, I would much rather that happen, cause then I wont have to worry about work, or house cleaning. I keep wondering how this is all going to go. In light of my situation now, I assume I will lay in the bed and starve to death before anyone else takes care of me or the household stuff. Someones gotta feed the animals. Now I am worried this will never happen. No one will feed anything and I will finally come out of this with the skeletal remains of my animals!

I also wonder if Kailey will act appropriately and help out with stuff or if she will be mean and laugh at me while I am asking her to help! You know that evil laugh you get from kids sometimes (the you can't get me laugh). I am sure this wont happen.. but am very curious to see how it all turns out.

Surgery....hope this works

So I am going to have surgery on my feet.. yes both, I am a brave woman and just want it over. If I do what the doctor says Ill have my feet out of the casts in no time. But I went for a pre-op exam where I talked to the doctor about the procedure and got my feet X-rayed and did all this stuff to prepare for the surgery.

I then had to call and make an appointment at the hospital for a pre-anesthesia exam. They supposedly check you to see if you are going to do well under anesthesia and then they run your blood tests and everything before the surgery so they know all this stuff before you have it done.

I have to be back up in Oak Ridge this Friday to go for that exam. I hope all goes well the count down has now begun there are 9 days left before my surgery. My surgery is going to be on March 10th. All I gotta say is I am looking forward to bed rest and some time at home with Kailey. I am gonna straighten that girl out one way or another.

I am so tired, over the weekend I had my best friend's kids over. Now I love all of her kids, they all have their own cute personalities. But they also have their own not so cute meanness about them. See Kailey is the same way, so that is why we were meant to be friends cause nothing our kids do will surprise the other. OK maybe somethings they choose to do will surprise us every once in a while.

This weekend they were particularly wound up, all of em. When I say I mean her 4 kids and my 1 child... now I know what it would be like to have 4 of Kailey, cause the baby isn't a quarter of what those big kids are..he definitely don't talk back lol... he is my favorite out of all the kids... he is cute and cuddly... but with no diarrhea of the mouth.

On Sunday night when all was said and done, I was thankful for an empty messy house. I was worn out, I don't quite know how my best friend does this on a daily basis.. but all I gotta say is she is a very strong woman to not have run away by now.. cause for some reason I have suspicions I would have already been gone months ago lol.

I just wanna say that I love small children but they (all of them) are just too smart and talk back. I wanted 4 kids at one point, now I think if I ever think that way again I will ask Anna to send her's over and that will straighten me out.