Our Plans

So this year before the baby comes, you know when I am fat and already SO miserable, we are going to Cincinnati Ohio to see the Steelers play in the NFL and WV Mountaineers play College ball lol. Great. I just keep thinking about how miserable I am now. I am huge.. I feel very fat and unattractive like I could pop any minute if i were to eat or drink anything.

So with all that said yes this trip is going to be miserable, we are staying in KY just across the bridge from the stadium. This will be fun. it will be two weeks from my due date, and I am hoping that Buddy will not drink while we are there, I will be too far pregnant to have to worry about all that. I am very anxious about it!

I hope that all will be OK, and that nothing bad happens while we are pushing the 2 week limit of labor! I know that once you are so far you could go at any time!! Labor was quick with Kailey, aside from having to be induced it was a whole 30 minute ordeal, which is fast for your first time! Everyone was surprised... but I was more surprised cause this day and time there should not be a 24 hour labor... they have way's of moving things right along, without all the waiting and getting no where.

I have been very crampy and just tired here lately. I had a dream the other night that my water broke while I was in bed and I couldn't get Buddy up to take me to the hospital... but I know that if my water had indeed broken he would get up and take me... I am not stupid, and neither is he lol.

Well this is all for now feel free to comment at any time.

Been sick, and getting sick of a bunch of crap

So, I am tired, again, I can't seem to get my energy up or anything else for that matter.

I can't get a full nights sleep because my 5-year-old keeps coming in the room and climbing all over me trying to sleep in my bed. UGH I can't deal with it, I take her back to her room, go for a potty break, and then go back and try to sleep.

My day yesterday went OK, I went to store after work and then got home unloaded all the groceries put them all away, then sat down with Kailey to do her homework. Started a load of laundry after, made Kailey a quick microwave pizza and then got an ass chewing cause I didn't make real food for dinner. umm I didn't get home till 7pm, then helped Kailey with her homework made her something to eat....by the time I was done with that it was right at 9pm and it was her bed time. I am so sick of everyone thinking I should cater to their ass like I don't have myself to worry about to.

So instead of me getting dinner and everything I started the load of laundry and just went to bed. I woke up at 1am and Kailey was in the bedroom wallering all over me to the point I couldn't sleep, so I get up take her to her bed put the laundry in the dryer and head on back to bed. Restart the dryer this morning while throwing a load of dishes in the washer and getting my bed straightened out. It is all i can do, to do ALL of the house work! I am sick of it. I am wondering how he expects me to make his lunch, do the laundry, dishes, and get myself and kids ready in the morning so I can go to work? How is this going to work, I can't get 4 whole people ready in the morning.

I am going to need help. This is where I wish my mother could be a real adult and step in, I just don't trust her she likes to get out and drive around carelessly with children not in restraint seats and it scares me. I don't want my baby to get killed because my mom had an accident. She doesn't have a car with a backseat and the one thing they do have with a backseat is a huge truck that no one can drive properly, plus it chugs gas.

I don't know what we are going to do with Emma once she is here, I guess we will have to make a way to afford daycare again. Maybe I should just get a second job and become a workaholic! Or maybe I should just quit work all together and work the welfare system. lol.. just kidding you guys know how I feel about all that. I don't think that any of us should be a burden on another. I just think that the working class mother should have the opportunity to send her children somewhere safe without being gouged to death on the price as if they were going out for a night on the town! We don't want to be away from our children we want to be at home with them but this economy doesn't make that possible at all!

Getting Closer Everyday

So Emma's arrival is getting closer every day. Despite People telling me how popular the name Emma is most of my Close friends who are here in person say "I know no one named Emma, and no one with Children that have that name" Or "There are no kids in my kids grade with that name!" This re-assures me that Emma is a good name to go with!
I only have known 1 Emma and she is a little younger than me. Buddy's mom knows an Emma but she is in her 60's and coincidentally shares the same last name as the Emma I know which is odd, cause they live in 2 different states and are generations apart from one another in age. So I guess we are sticking with Emma who knows though still 2 months left until she is here.

I have heard a lot of people saying "this person's baby came early" IT is happening a lot here lately. The girl I met at Food City's baby came 2 months early, in August rather than Late October. I haven't had any signs of early labor.. but neither did she, her water just broke and out she came! Weighing only 3 pounds. So far I have heard about 8 other ladies who have went into premature labor and had their babies early... some their babies were too small to be coming that early... So I just keep hoping she don't just show up really early.
So I don't have much to say... just that stuff. It is about all I could think of. I haven't had a lot to say, things have been pretty normal I don't know the results of my Fasting blood sugar yet. I assume if it were bad I would have heard something by now. I haven't heard a word.

Baby Shower held for me at work on 9/15/2011

These are pictures from my Baby Shower held at the TWPC on 9/15/2011



The Bouncer I wanted for baby Emma





My Boss is hillarious how do you like the Cake she got?




You can never have too many diapers




And what would a baby be without a WOMB Bear? Thanks Mel




This was the Bedding I wanted... I love work.




Colic bottles for when breast feeding goes south or I come back to work




This is a gown for me not the baby




This is a gown for the baby




Appliques for the wall so that the babies room can match the crib bedding




All the beautiful items my work family got for me.





My hat Tammy Dowdell made for me




Me relaxing after eating ALL that food.




Kailey wanted us to name the "new baby" Spike!



 

Baby Names

Why is it so hard to name a baby? No name seems good enough or the right one. I wish they just came like cabbage patch dolls with names already given to them. I think we are going to name her Emma Sophia Beavers, who knows though this could change.

I live with the most indecisive man ever.. so we will never be able to have things monogrammed for our children until after they are born. He says I am confusing and that I can't make up my mind. Lets just put it this way.... it is hard to make your mind up with someone saying that it is all up to you but then being dis-satisfied with everything you choose.... not me... YOU mister. So please help me name our daughter and set it in stone so I don't have to feel like a bad mother who can't pick out a name for her child GGGGAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!

So with all that said for now it is Emma Sophia Beavers. Tomorrow for all we know it could be something else. Buddy's mom said she liked Laken, buddy said no to that. I just want my kid to have a name!

I don't really want a mediocre name just a name that is befitting that we both like. I love names... just not picking them with Buddy lol.

That is all for now a short simple post about names this may go on!

So what to name baby

So after long debate, I think we are going to go with Emma, Emmalee Grace, or Kendall.... We still have not gotten iron clad on which but we will eventually. I am just glad we got this far. I am so sick of trying to figure out a name for this child by myself and it was about time for someone else to step in and help out. So I just told him last night and although the response was not exactly what I wanted, at least he voiced his opinion and we now are at least down to 3 names we both can agree on.

I just hope we pick one soon!! I just don't want to be in limbo with baby names until the day of her birth. I want to know what she will be called and know that we have it all planned out, so there are no last minute problems or questions... it all must be planned lol. Although even the best plans are not fool proof.... I  just hope we can figure it all out. Just thought I would give that update.

The weekend

So the weekend was a drag, on Friday I ran all over the place till I was super over exhausted I had to go to doctors appointments, to the school.... my brother and I had caught a Billy Goat I was just going to GIVE to a guy from Buddy's work. The man had asked Buddy if I had goats! I said yes and he asked if I  would be willing to give one away, yes I had a Billy goat that needed to be sent on his way, and so we captured him and the guy decided after we caught him and Buddy was going to take him to him that he didn't want a Billy goat... good luck Nanny goats are not free nor cheap and you can be picky when it is free. I can't stand people like that.


So after I had a goat in the back of my truck I didn't have time to get him out so he hung out with me while I went to the get my oil and transmission checked and changed, then to my daughters school for lunch then i took him home and dumped him out in my back yard. I gave him to my cousins across the field cause they had stopped once and asked about a goat after theirs had died of old age.

So he got a home after all..... figure if I was going to give him to anyone might as well be people who want a goat.... (free and are not picky). So he is gone now. I went to chiropractor and then to the store, eventually making it home. I was so exhausted by then that when I got home I took a nap and woke up after time to go get Kailey.. so I made a mad dash for the door and got out there and picked her up.

I then went home and laid back down and eventually made dinner so that buddy would have something to eat when he got home. On Saturday I did my real grocery shopping I barely could get around I felt like my body weighed 1000 pounds and the rest of me was just there... I am SO wore out I could barely push the buggy around the store to get what I needed. Kailey was bored all day and driving me nuts cause we didn't really do anything cause I was too tired.

Sunday was a family reunion, for the smith family, I took Kailey after mom said she was going but she wouldn't get out of bed cause she was mad at my father. Not that childish crap isn't anything new... just the fact she is the only that told me about it and then she didn't go I had to go by myself. I was the only one from my family that went. But I saw lots of people I hadn't seen in a while.

My mom and dad aren't getting along well anymore and I think they will be on the outs again real soon. I was real aggravated with them by Sunday cause they just kept arguing and causing trouble with one another over the most childish shit.

I have never seen two more childish adults in my life. Sometimes I feel like I am parenting them. I just want them to grow up, get priorities, and stop fighting about stupid shit! I am just so tired of it. Also I want them to quit bumming money off of me. As their daughter you would think that it was my place to be bumming money off of them but instead they are bumming money off of me all the time! Never paying it back and always needing more.

It just gets worse all the time.


Buddy is having a hard time at his Job, they are not safe out there... they don't pay like they are supposed to and he is supper wore out from working 7 - 12 hour shifts. The guys they got running the machines are not careful, they will run you over or drop stuff on your head from way up high. I don't understand, how can you run a job like that?

Well this was pretty much my whole weekend, nothing remarkable happened and I am sorely tired from all of it.

The updates on baby and me.

So this pregnancy has been difficult. I can tell you that maybe it is not as bad as some pregnancies but I would give anything if it was just like when I was pregnant with Kailey.... cause right now I am fed up with it.

The baby whom we haven't picked out a name for is causing my hormones to be in HORRID overdrive... lol... I am running random fevers, having nipple pain, and now I may have diabetes on top of it.

I have only gained 12 pounds... but I need to lose 20 to honestly be in a healthy pregnancy. I am going on Friday 16th for a 4-hour fasting blood test to confirm if I have the Gestational Diabetes after my 1-hour turned out badly this week.

I am trying to be positive, but I am obese, tired, achy and just down right miserable with 2 1/2 months left in this pregnancy. I am embarrassed about my weight I feel like a bloated cow. I am going to start walking... I am seeing a chiropractor now and I plan on trying to pass up lots of carbs from here on out. I want my daughter to be smart and they claim that the fattier the foods the smarter the healthier the brain.

We are having a baby shower next Thursday here at my work for me. I am excited cause I need EVERYTHING, had I for seen the future we would have tried to store all of Kailey's Items and just not had to NEED anything but diapers and formula. Lol Kailey is Almost 6-years-old though I honestly didn't think we would have anymore but I am pregnant with #2 and already want there to be a #3! I am awful I keep thinking if she were a boy maybe I wouldn't want a 3rd so bad! My luck we would go ahead for #3 and it would be another girl! lol. I just wouldn't tell anyone until after we found out what we were having that I was pregnant with #3 cause a lot of people I feel Jinxed us claiming "oh its a boy for this symptom" and saying "well maybe it will be a boy" or that they knew for a fact "its a boy" lol. I am sort of superstitious like that you just don't make predictions or anything cause it just gets your hopes up. Of course we wanted a boy and after a while I made it known that is what we wanted... but still.

The worse part is that Buddy isn't helping out with the name picking except rejecting all the names I do pick and not coming up with any to help out... it says "its just a name" . Yes a name our kid will be stuck with for the rest of her life! Well that is it for now. I am going to sign off and try to remember to update more often but I am super exhausted and I need more sleep!