The weekend of Birthdays

Hey all so I am not keeping up with my blog the way I planned. This weekend was hectic, I went to get my cousin Erin on Friday. She was moving out of her boyfriends house with her daughter. She spent the night with us at our house.

Saturday she took Emily back to see her daddy, and then ended up at my aunt Edith's house cause they just cant get along. I took Kailey to Cameron's 8th Birthday party, and got to see old ACT friends. It was nice but short lived cause I then had to go back to get Erin, take Kailey home and get ready to go to my boss's 40th birthday party. It was a surprise 70's Party. Great party.

I got home with Erin at 2am. IT was fun but I am too old for this! I was SO tired.

I woke up on Sunday at 8am and Buddy was getting Kailey ready to go on a hiking trip. It was nice I was all alone after noon but had nothing to do. So I went shopping. After shopping I came home. I went up to my dads to take pictures of his horrible looking house and then buddy was home by 7pm. He said he and Kailey had a great hike. They hiked five miles, it was good for her. She enjoyed it.

I tried to go to bed at 9pm but unfortunately Buddy realized his overalls were not clean and got angry with me cause he claims I do nothing. All of this was a plot to get him to start picking up his own clothes and getting them to the Laundry.

So I was up off and on doing laundry so I wouldn't get yelled at anymore. I was up late this morning because of that and the fact the alarms didn't go off cause someone can come turn the TV off but not make sure the Alarms are on! It really sucks but I made it to work finally and I have to leave at 10 to go meet with my mothers renters to see what we can't do about her being evicted.

The dog days of cold

Hey followers, so last night my man let me go to bed and he stayed up to tend to the child. He put her to bed and thought he was going to come to bed, at Midnight, she is back up and I awake to him spanking her and putting her back to bed.

It is awful we have to go through this because my mother makes her sleep all day. At our house when we had her at home we didn't have this problem. She was at home with us for almost 2 weeks. Went to bed every night at 9pm and didn't get up once. She didn't sleep in all day she was up by 7am and back to bed by 9pm. It is stupid that my parents don't look at our situation we have to work! We can't be up all night with our daughter fighting with her.

They don't want to watch her they don't have to. They shouldn't have ever offered. This has put us in a situation to have to find another alternative. We could hardly afford daycare and our bills and it was hard to make the decision to take her out of daycare and let them watch her.

Kailey tells us stuff all the time and I wish there was a cheaper alternativee so we wouldn't have to make the decision of Daycare or food, or daycare or the light bill. Even though we both have good jobs it is very hard to pay our bills and aford a place for kailey to go during the day.

Work days stink lol

So work days are no fun and especially without Tom. He is my best friend, so naturally like my lady friends I miss him.

When I told Kailey he broke his leg she got very upset and thought they would have to put him down like they did Sophie back in July when she broke her leg. (Sophie is a horse) I explained to her people don't die when they break their leg that doctors fix that for them and they don't have to worry about it, that it hurts a lot but they recover and are all better after a couple months.

I try to be honest with her so that she doesn't think we lie to her about everything. I know most parents beat around the bush about things like death, but I think its better she know now that find out later that her pets didn't go to live on a big farm somewhere, that mommy and daddy are a bunch of liers!

So anyway. Tom had surgery on his leg wednesday, they put a rod in there and fixed it up the best they could. The Dr. Said that it was a very good outcome and he was pleased, now they would just have to wait for the thing to heal and see how it goes.

I wonder when he will be back! I enjoy his company and although I have been moved away into another trailer I still like chatting it up with him, and going on smoke breaks, (he don't smoke he takes non-smoking, smoke breaks lol).

So, someone posted on my facebook page that if you take the year you were born just the last 2 digits(for me this is 84) and add them to the age you will be on your birthday in 2011 (27) you will get a scheme of 1's .. Mine equals 111... so did my daughters (11) and her fathers (111).

I am very asstonished by this and would like an explanation, I don't know how but it works for everyone, I have tested it out on many employees old and young and it equals 111 every time for adults and 11 for children who were born after 2000.

This is come crazyness.

So today I am at work determined to get crap done and scan in the clean eating diet book so I can reference it from any computer. :-) I like this idea

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Anna came and hung out with me Sunday. We rode to the Flea market and shopped for a bit. I didn't buy anything. Anna found some cool stuff.

We went by the toy shop that was on the same road (OK ladies not kids toys but bedroom kind). We are hilarious in the perv shop, we sword fought with some creative play toys! The lady at the desk thought we were crazy I am sure.

We went to lunch at the Chinese restaurant. Then we went to the house to collect Kailey and go to save a lot. But since Kailey didn't want to come, we just went without her. Anna showed me how to make a homemade barbecue sauce. And a different way to make meat loaf.

Then we worked out and she had to go cause Leland didn't know where she was, it had been hours and she had no way to contact him as he didn't have a viable phone. I spent the rest of the night after she left cleaning and prepping my carpets for the cleaning they were about to receive.

Monday I was SO tired I only got to clean Kailey's Carpet. I hated that as I had planned to do SO much more. I got done washing Kailey's carpet spent the rest of the day being lazy I have to start my diet tomorrow, since I was too lazy to start it today.

Kailey is going to moms to spend the night so that I can get up early in the morning and go to work early as she has to go see the urologist tomorrow at 2:40pm so I have to leave work early. So I get her ready take a shower and we all pile in to my truck and head to my moms. We drop Kailey off and proceed to the movies for our date night. I am sad to say we just went and saw a movie and came home and did our separate things.

He went to bed and I slept on the couch. I hate that cause I cant sleep on the couch anymore. I can't get comfortable. I don't know why but I just can't go to sleep anymore! I was up until 12:30 and didn't get out of bed till just before 5am. I didn't take a shower and threw on clothes as fast as I could and ran out the door.

Then I had to turn around and go back cause I had buddy's keys in my purse. I took them back and threw them in his drivers seat and left to get to work.

So Thursday was Kailey's 5th birthday! She was SO loving, she missed us while she was away at my moms and we were at work. I hated being at work on her 5th birthday.

So Friday I took her to see the dentist. She has lost 2 teeth this year within 3 months of each other. The dentist says that is OK, but her tongue needs to be snipped he said he is surprised that she don't have speech problems and it is hard for her to touch the roof of her mouth with the tip of her tongue with her mouth opened. The base of her tongue is anchored right behind her teeth as well so that is odd. When she stretches it up it pulls on the gum line.

Today we are having her birthday party, at the BK in LC. I figured a cheap place to have it would be a free play area, and as long as we buy all the kids a kids meal no one can say or complain about anything. I just wanted all the kids to have a good fun time.

Kailey is excited but i worry not many kids will show up. I remember my birthdays, no one ever came so we just didn't have any. One time my cousin Casey came which was nice and we haven't really been friends I think that is when I started getting depressed about my life. I realized how big a looser I was and that no one even liked me.

One time a girl named Sara came to my brothers birthday party and that was nice. I guess you just don't go to white trash birthday's, I definitely don't want it to be that way for Kailey. Buddy wants me to stop having birthday parties for Kailey, he says that its stupid to have a birthday party every year! I never heard nothing like that. I thought you were supposed to have a birthday party every year!

I know not a big blow out. We tried Chuckie cheese one year, that was a bomb. Not many people came but Kailey had fun. It didn't matter to Kailey she enjoyed it. It is really sad that Buddy's family tends to let Kailey down a lot. I want to take her to see them but they are big trouble!

By that I mean sometimes when you think that they are great people you catch them trying to cause trouble or they do lots to disappoint the ones you love.

I use to drive up there and take Kailey to see them. They didn't appreciate that! And they certainly never drove down to visit. They use to, I don't know I guess they just don't feel like being a part of all that. I feel bad for Kailey and I told buddy if it continues then Kailey will just not know them cause I am not going to continue to get her hopes up about phantom family.


Me, I would give you the shirt off my back while you spit in my face. Ill keep doing things for UN-appreciative people and never think twice, while he sits here and tells me those people don't care they are not your Friends, it is not about that, they are still people and they still need and deserve things. Sometimes not deserve lol, but more along the lines of needs.

So maybe I am just stupid, maybe I help people out for no reason other than feeling useful. He acts like it is a burden on him, but honestly when I help people it is on my own time, on time when I would have normally been sitting my ass at home on this computer doing nothing while he watched TV and sat on his ass at the couch.

I think that this year I am going to focus on not caring I am going to careless in 2011 and say fuck all those people who sit and use and use and use me and then lose me after they are done. Yes I am talking about you

I hope my daughter has a great birthday party. One of these days she will be old enough to just get a call from them one day and say " who are you I don't know you, why are you calling me? You didn't show up for my birthdays, I never saw you at special holidays! I never knew you please leave me alone!"

I know she will have her real friends and family to fall back on and we will be here for her when she falls!

Later today,

Well we went to the BK to set up as you can't reserve space, some other party was going on in the kids play area. I worked at BK for 2 years, I know they don't do reservations or private parties, as long as you pay for your food they can't be against you having a party hell you can leave all your garbage on the table and they will clean it up!

The people who were throwing the party had the whole play area taken up, so we sat in the main dining room it was still fun. But we sent the kids to play! Later we realized that the people with the party in the play room had tried to put these signs saying that it was a private party, first off you are sorry if you are trying to throw a "private" party for a 2 year old in a public play room where other children's parents come to buy them a Kids meal and let them play.

Second off you are totally stupid if you think that you can throw a private party in a place that is public and doesn't cater to partys! Go to chucky cheese they give you your own private table you cheap skates. Yes we let our kids come in the play room and play! Just like if we had, had a party in there we defenantly would not have tried to block other children from playing in there. It would not have been fair, we didn't pay any extra for the space and it was still public.

We kept wondering why those people were giving us dirty looks! (our kids were playing in the play area they had tried to turn to a private party room) Well as the BK staff told us they don't book em and you are free to use whatever you want as long as you aren't tearing up stuff. So to those people trying to be cheap and have a "private" party with their 2 year old Happy birthday to your kid, but I am sorry my daughter is just as special as yours and it is the burger king for god sake not the ritz carelton and hardly any of your kids were playing in the play area!

Maybe you should learn some manners, also if you want to really try next time dont be so cheap with your printer paper and ink and print your signs where they are ledgeable. That is how cheap you are, you want to turn the public play area into a private one just for your snobby selfish reasons and then you want to print it in small letter head so that you can hide it from the staff and hope that other parents stay out with their kids. I hope your kids have more respect and heart than you do when they are adults.

So here we go!

Well it is another Catch-up week, lol, aren't they all. It is now the 12th and it has been 6 days since I last posted anything to my blog, Yes I am a fading blogger. What that means is I start off strong, and end up not SO strong lol.

I worked last Thursday, and then went home. Over the weekend I pretty much spent my every waking moment in the house. Saturday I took Kailey with me to a friends Baby Shower. I tried my best to explain to my 4-year-old that babies do not come at Baby Showers. I said "Kailey, now the baby wont be here, it is still in it's mommies tummy." She said "OK, then why are we doing this?" I said "well this is like a birthday party before the baby is born, so that when the baby gets here it has plenty of stuff so the mommy don't have to worry about going  and buying it"

She seemed content with my answer but later on at the shower she proclaimed as the mother-to-be opened all her son's gifts "When is this baby gonna get here?" as if she were expecting him to show up and open the gifts himself. She seemed real upset and I had to explain to her again that CW was in his mother stomach and he wasn't coming out anytime too soon.

I talked to my friend Jeanie and she is going to make Kailey's Care Bear Cake for us. YAY. So we finally managed to get everything set Kailey's birthday will be held at the BK kids area, with all the kids getting kids meals and hanging out in the

Sunday night. I took Kailey to see Despicable Me at the dollar Movies . That was a good girl day for us we enjoyed the time away!

Monday we were out of work because of the 3.5 inches of snow we got Sunday night. I love snow days. I need a huge vacation. Maybe I am just bored, I don't know. I tried to take Kailey to my moms on Tuesday, and I didn't make it cause there was no way I was going to make it up and down the hills on the way to her house.

So I stayed home with Kailey and we had a little girl time at home. Then Buddy came home and I went to work. I hate these weeks cause we have no money and I keep forgetting to lay food out to cook so that we can have decent meals on the table. So they had to eat left overs. 

Another day!

So today is another day, yes it happens all the time!


Last night while at work the snow started to fall fast, the roads became an Ice slush and people started to panic and leave. As some of the people at my work have to drive really far to get home on untreated roads this is very dangerous.


The traffic was bumper to bumper as I left work! I pulled out and went to the gas station as I was running out of gas fast! I finally made it home and was thankful for that. My friend Tom's daughter posted on Face book that her puppy got run over! I hated that, she said her uncle was on his way to the vet with him, but I found out later from Tom and Lisa that he had passed away on the way to the vet. It is very sad. I feel awful for them.


I sat around the house, and finally made myself make dinner. I had a horribly stiff knee all day yesterday! I can't stand it cause I have been bloaty and crampy all day. I finally fell asleep about midnight. I have had horrible insomnia all week. I hope to catch up on sleep soon.


Today 1/6, I woke up late, I took forever to get a shower. When I finally get to leave the house I had to run to the bank to get some money for my brother. He is going to get my ponies feet trimmed and get hay for Cappy. He needs to find a new home soon!


I then take Kailey to my mothers house and drop her off. I stop back by the gas station to get coffee and break a twenty so my brother can have change for these people. I take the money shove it in an envelope and stick it in his truck then head to work.


I am SO tired. I needed the coffee and I definitely needed more sleep. I finally get to work, but stand outside and talk to Maria who is pregnant we were joking around and cutting up about her soon to be delivered son.


Then I made it to the work area and got side tracked talking to Chris, she is funny. I didn't want to go to work. I was hoping all the snow would just keep coming through today! but that didn't happen. So now Im at work and I am gonna crack that whipp and get some crap done!

A miracle is not the suspension of natural law, but the operation of a higher law

A miracle is not the suspension of natural law, but the operation of a higher law.

Why don't miracles happen anymore? I mean we read in the Bible about all these miraculous things! Why don't they happen anymore. I know some people will say well I went to a healing ceremony and saw a crippled girl walk!

No! What you saw was a professional group of actors trying to get your money. If it were a real healing ceremony and someone indeed that was crippled was walking away from it then you would read it in the paper, the doctors would consider it a miracle knowing that the person could not walk in the first place and knowing their chances of walking were zero, he would have to call the press.

That is some ridiculous crap that people believe! I believe in God, but not miraculous healing under a tent in some park! Maybe I should change this to my ranting blog, it seems that everyday I find something to rant about. But believe me I am not the only one who thinks this way!

So my life has been quite complicated, all I want to do is sell my horse. I have gotten a sort of run around by potential buyers, he is what he is, I can't make him any better or worse, and I am not giving him away!

Some lady from GA said I would like to see some up dated pictures of him as if a week ago was too long. I don't get off until after dark, what kind of pictures am I going to take of this horse in the middle of the night?

He has become a bit of a jumpy fella and seems to be taking solitary confinement a bit hard! I feel bad for him and he needs a new home. I need my operation and my brother is not the person to be taking care of him. Hell just the other day he let him out to graze, left him out, and then had to catch him after a neighbor called and said he was out, out, and walking down the road!

I just want to find him a good home with someone who has time and a place to keep him. Someone who can ride him and enjoy him and keep him ridden up until he is about 5 years old and be fine with just riding him.

He is too nervous right now for a beginner or an older fragile person. Some woman wrote me and asked me if my horse would be good for a beginner child. Now out of 3 paragraphs I wrote on him where did she see any indication that he would make a beginner a horse?

Now in the past while horse shopping, I would read the add, if the horse applied to what I wanted it for, I would email if it sounded totally opposite I would ignore it and go to the next add.

I have my horse listed for a fraction of the price that a horse of his breed and quality would sale for as an untouched colt!

He is a coming 4-year-old horse that has been trained. An untouched colt would be wild and just that untouched, and would need work from the ground up. Mine only needs riding and people want him for free. I see these same colts look just the same as him and they are 4000.00

He has been trained he side passes, he backs up which is rare these days as most people left out backing in training on most horses. He goes, he follows you like a dog when he has been messed with these days he don't do nothing but stand and eat. It is a sad fact that I am having to give up horses for now, I not only have no where to keep him but I have medical problems out the ass and I just need money more right now. This wont be the first or the last time though.

Ill be back in the saddle again hopefully next summer so Summer 2012 hold your breath Ill be in south fork all summer!

This week at a glance ha ha.

So, Wednesday night Kailey went to stay with my mother and father so we could get up early on Thursday and go to Nashville. It was nice having a night without Kailey but lonely at the same time. I got up got a shower, did my makeup and got ready to go.

The drive was not so bad but Nashville was a disaster, there were streets blocked off due to construction and it was hard to maneuver around Nashville. Buddy was in a bad mood because of the weather and the traffic. We finally got something to eat and then went to check in at our motel.

We checked in and had gotten into an argument about his bad attitude, for no reason. Finally we made up and got ready to go down the the strip. We caught a cab and he dropped us off less than a block from the strip cause of the roads being all messed up. We walked and went to a bar. The bar was OK, but crowded with UT and NC fans. Some of the NC fans were rude and needed an attitude adjustment.

We went to another bar and drank some more, then we went to the field to find our seats. We got our seats and then decided during the 2nd inning we would walk to the Wild horse bar and hang out and have some dinner. The sandwich I got was great, but we noticed the game was getting good. UT was winning, and because of a technicality the game was going into overtime.

Buddy immediately began to bitch at me as if it were my idea to leave the field, I never asked to leave he wanted to go get some food. But for some reason it was my fault that we had to leave and now I was going to pay for it.

He bitched at me and said awful things the whole walk back to the field. He claimed he wasn't taking me back to another game again because I always make him leave, but every game I have been to with him he has left early not because I wanted him to but because he wanted to or because he chose for us to leave.

So we get back to the field and of course they don't let you back in once you have left. UT lost and the gates opened and everyone started walking out, fights broke out cause north Carolina even though they won is full of sorry shitty people. I always like North Carolina as a state until I met people from one city Piedmont area. All the people there were rude, nosey, and would just blatantly say rude things to people they didn't even know.

I am a white girl of course, and I went up there to help with Anna's father who was dieing of cancer, we wanted to make his home more livable but the yard had become over grown and snakes were everywhere, we got a hotel room, and the next morning got dressed to go work in the yard. It was hot so I wore shorts and some woman at the wal-mart who had to be like 30 years older than me was talking very LOUDLY and rude about how white and ugly my legs are!

Who does that? Then we went to the MC Donald's to get some food and people were giving us rude ugly stares, and for no reason hadn't they ever seen 2 ladies wearing shorts and tank tops ready to go work in a yard? And if you think maybe we were wearing something inappropriate we got these same rude gestures the day before when we were wearing pants and t-shirts. So I don't think it was the way we were dressed.

So I personally don't care for NC people. I only know snobby TN people who think they are better than everyone that treat others with total disrespect but they don't go as far as pointing them out in public and ridiculing them. Seriously. You don't need to do all that.

The only nice NC people I know weren't born and raised there they were transplants from other normal states where you were raised to know if you don't have something nice to say don't say it at all and the golden rule which is taught in all schools in TN "Do Unto Others as You would have them do unto you" we were always taught to treat everyone the way we would have them treat us! So we know the repercussions of being rude would be the person we were rude to being rude back! It is common sense.

So there is my rant for NC people, if you are an NC person and you aren't mean and rude, thank you! I appreciate that, and hope there are more like you out there.