2 days

So we have 2 days before I go to WVa to get Buddy's mom and bring her and Buddy's nephew down for a week. Sounds like fun. I just am dreading the drive. I love taking road trips, and doing stuff, but I have been extremely tired.

I am starting to get energy back. It has taken some time. I am hoping for a safe trip with no problems. I am also going to take my truck to get the tires balanced and rotated and I am going to do a fuel injection treatment on it.... check the oil and the transmission fluid and change the oil when I return from my  trip to get Donna.

I plan to go get my hair cut today, Amanda Patterson and I are going on a trip at lunch to get fireworks and get my hair cut. It will be fun. After work tonight I have to go home and get the rest of my house clean, so I am going to clean up Kaileys room and the play room and wash the carpets. I also have to empty the dirty water out of the turtle tank and get that castle out of the turtle tank and set it all back up with clean water and bring tuck the turtle back in the house. I plan on taking tomorrow to have a girl day with kailey and get ready to go saturday to pick buddy's mom up.

I hope that Buddy's room is cleaned up so his mom and his brother have somewhere to sleep. I am hoping he will clean it all up today and get everything squared away for her coming to stay. It will be nice for her and Briar to have a good room to stay in since they will be here for a week.

The weekend at a glance

The weekend came, and boy was I thankful. I planned on making it a weekend of cleaning, just taking my time and not wearing myself out. So it is now Monday and I wore myself out and didn't hardly get anything done but causing more tension between buddy and I lol.

The house is over baringly cluttered. The spare room is the room that has all his personal stuff it in. Kailey has a play room and a bed room for all her personal and play items. Me I just got some tubs in a closet that have what little I own in them.

My storage building has been taken over by many manly things, I feel like everything that once was Amanda is now everyone else's and I have given up everything and have nothing of my own. I can't even go to the bathroom by myself lol.

We wanted to move to a bigger house, but we didn't get the house we wanted now we are just kind of bummed out and waiting for something else! Buddy has to give up his storage room where he keeps all his Nascar, football ects.... items, which would not have happened if we had gotten the bigger house.

We just found out about the house over the weekend. So I continued to try to declutter this house.. which means more of my stuff must got! It is hard because it depresses me cause I don't honestly have anything and most of the stuff I do have is temporary stuff, which means it gets thrown away after awhile or it is re gifted to someone else. I just have no where to put anything.

Heck there isn't even room in my house for dishes!!! Why couldn't we have gotten the new house? I keep telling myself that things happen for a reason.I just hope another house comes along that we can afford.

Today I came home from work, and had to fight off the urge to go to bed right away. I had to get up I cleaned my room up as good as can be. I cleaned the bathroom out, got all the old products out of the bathroom, I cleaned the counters off and found a lot of stuff that was just old and out of date, I threw it all away.

I felt better but then Kailey threw a fit and I had to drag her to her room and spank her butt! I hated to do that but it is honestly getting old telling her to go to bed and then having to argue and hear her whine. She is a real whiner, and she has gotten me real stressed out here lately if I get stressed enough I end up praying to the porcelain god and begging for it to stop.

Well I am tired and I am going to bed now. Sorry blog has been so lame here lately I will step it up a bit more later ;-)

We are back.

OK, so we got back on fathers day, I felt totally horrible though cause we didn't get to get buddy anything for fathers day, and he didn't wanna go out to eat, instead he made himself a tuna sandwich. I know Monday he was angry about it though cause, he was in a bad mood all day.

Tuesday I was horribly ill. I don't know what was wrong with me but I felt like I had the flu. I was feverish, holding back the urge to vomit while falling asleep at the drop of a hat. I know I paint a pretty picture. My boss finally told me to go home and i did. I had to... I knew I wasn't gonna feel any better. I went home and laid down, woke up feeling better, then got sick again, and went to bed by 9pm... I slept a lot.

Wednesday, I took buddy to get a fathers day present. I would rather him have things he wants other than things he hates and has to live with. SO I just said I am going to get you a watch, not a cheap watch one of the expensive ones you have wanted. Then he said nah, I would really like to have this and that is what we went and bought. It was a pull behind yard cart that you hook to your lawn mower. Oh what fun. He is going to get rid of a lot of stuff out of our building. Oh how nice. Most of it needs to go anyways. Besides that all the building is, is a mice and bug collector... I don't know why there is nothing in their worth eating. About all they have done is ruined everything.

So I am tired again today, I didn't go to bed until 11pm last night, when I should have been in bed at 9:30 or 10pm. Kailey peed in my bed again. UGH when will the peeing end? So this is my life this week, totally boring, but it is mine lol.

Sun through Friday

So we are having a great time on the beach. On sunday we finally arrived, we got down to the beach before sunset, and we hung out for a bit and got in the water. There is all the green stuff floating around it is not sea weed a lady told me yesterday what it was called. I don't recal what that was though.

So the second day was just as awesome. This trip has been soo much fun we haven't taken nearly as many pictures as we normally do. But also Kailey said "I don't want you taking pictures of me". I don't know what her problem is.

She and I went for a walk on the Pier yesterday which was thursday, we saw dolphins and a giant sea Turtle. We also saw about 2 dozen people fishing for shark and all other kinds of fish. It was fun but yet again Kailey wouldn't let me take any pics of her.

We went to Gulf world, and the pirate ship cruise, this is the last year we will do the pirate ship cause Kailey didn't enjoy it. She only enjoyed seeing the dolphins and getting a tattoo. I didn't enjoy it because the boat swayed back and fourth too much this time. More than the other times we went on it. It seemed like it wasn't as great this year. Although Kailey has went on it 3 times now.

So here are pics and video from gulf world and the pirate ship

In Panama city beach florida

So we left Saturday, everything seemed to be going wrong... my brother is the only one who did anything right. We got the Rental car in just the nick of time. My brother got hay just before we left but it didn't look like hay it looked like straw guy who sold it to him said "its wheat hay" hoping the pony and goat will eat it.

The turtle's care provider decided they didn't want to do it. So my brother got stuck caring for the turtle. We ended up having to set him up a turtle tat outside so he could get to him and feed him. I just hope nothing happens to him. My mom is watching scrappy which worries me because one year we let them watch our pony. We come back from vacation the pony had been missing for 3 days and no one had even looked for him. So this worries me about the dog! I mean a 400 lb pony is running loose no one looks for it a 10 lb dog goes missing what do you think they are going to do?

So I am worried but they were my only option. I am SO worried about scrappy he is my little boy...I love him.

Now Saturday night we stayed in Eufaula Alabama, we saw an alligator on Sunday morning while watching the water next to the hotel. It was scary but awesome at the same time. We continued down to the Resort in Panama city Beach Florida. We got in Panama City Beach Florida around 2pm. Stopped at walmart, then we went to the resort and checked in at 3pm. We went down to the beach and hung out and had a good time but there is sea moss all over the place (I don't know if it is derived from seaweed or what, but it is like hairy green stuff, when it dries out it is like fake green hair!).

I have been horribly tired, but for the most part I haven't really had any sickness. I Love the beach and relaxing out here. I wish we could stay!

Got a date, to see MAX and RUBY with Laquita and Dallas

So, we never found out what this baby is going to be yet. :-( bummer.

Buddy and I are getting ready to go on our Panama City Vacation. Got our Camera's up and working at home... Got our Alarm System and Double keyed deadbolt for our home security...Got my brother feeding all the outdoor animals, got my mom and dad taking care of scrappy and Tuck the indoor Animals.. now we are working on packing. I have to start Thursday, so that I have everything together for our trip.

We have to go pick up the car Saturday, then we are leaving to go to Eufala for the night, and spending half the day there on Sunday, then we will head on down to the PCB Sunday afternoon cause we have to be there between 3 and 5 to check in.

So we are going to have fun.

But tonight I am taking Kailey with my friend Laquita and her son on a double date...well they are taking us, Laquita's friend got her tickets for 2 adults and 2 children to go to Max and Ruby's bunny tea party at the Tennessee Theatre in Knoxville. So we are all gonna go to dinner, and then go to the Theatre and have us a good ole time. It will be nice.

Later UPDATE (this thing wasn't finished for like 4 days it is crazy but I am doing it now.)
So Max and Ruby was great, Dallas and Kailey get along great, I mean they are like any other kids, but they are not loud and obnoxious when they get together so that is good. We took them to Dinner and the Theatre in Knoxville, the theatre is very upscale to hold a children's event in. I would be afraid those kids would break something priceless.

After our date, we went and got Ice Cream from Sonic and we had a ball their to. Then we went home for the night, our date was a long one it started at 4:30 and ended at 10pm but we had fun so you can't put a time frame on fun.

It was SO good that we went out again Friday, to go to the Oak Ridge pool. Now the Oak Ridge pool was a great time. I tell you what though, my legs WILL NEVER get sun, but my thighs got scorched. I am SO aggravated with the scorching of my thighs lol. They are a bright red, they hurt and I am surprised I went to sleep last night. I had a lot of fun though in the pool with our kids... Dallas and Kailey are dare devils, they were swimming in the deep water, and I know Kailey doesn't take after me because when I was a kid I had such bad anxiety I was afraid of EVERYTHING... I was afraid to ride bikes with other kids because I was afraid we would run into each other. I was afraid to do ANYTHING. I was the kid that when the other kids were doing it (not my friends my grandmother ran a day care and I have an older brother)  I was standing back going NO, don't do that someone could get hurt lol, or No, I don't wanna get into trouble. I wasn't the tattle tale which got my butt whooped for everything weather I did it or not, but you would think that would have changed my attitude, I take more risks now, but not like crazy risks, but normal risks.

So, these two have life jackets on, and they are swimming in water that would be like 13 foot to an adult lol, I was surprised one of them wasn't going on about being scared. I know Dallas is a lot braver than Laquita would like lol....Love his little heart, Kailey is that kid, you know the one that pushes her parents buttons just seeing how much she can get away with, Dallas is pretty obedient, so he will sit back and watch Kailey, like JEEZ I can't believe she is doing that, all the while thinking, I wonder if I done that would I get into trouble?

I have a feeling these two are gonna be trouble in the future lol. He is a cutie pie though, but I think Kailey will be his bad influence. It is rather funny now, but I don't know if Laquita and I wanna find out what kinda trouble those two are gonna cause in the future.

So after the pool we went to K-Mart, we got Kailey some water shoes, and then we went to dinner. After dinner I spent a little time bowing to the porcelain god, I am pretty much over the sickness... I can not take it anymore. I also can't loose anymore weight I will get into trouble with my OBGYN.

So we are finally to today, I am leaving in less than 10 hours to go to the beach, we plan on being out of here between noon and four. I can not wait to be gone from this house. There seems to be SO much we have left to get done, but we have SO little time. I am getting very anxious at this point cause I can't wait to get out of here.

We are leaving our small dog with my mother, oh, and our turtle. We are letting my brother feed the pony and the goat while we are gone, oh and the 2 big dogs. We are hoping that things go well there are no lost animals this year, (yes one year my family lost a PONY (yes the size of a GreatDane with hooves weighing about 400 lbs.) and never said anything to me until we got back and they had not made any efforts to try and find him). The day after I got home from vacation the pony just comes running down the road like he was supposed to go fetch something... it was very odd.

So anyways, I am crossing my fingers and praying that nothing like that happens again... I can't deal or handle that right now. Just take care of them, if one gets out please look for it as it is a humans responsibility to maintain his animals, and then put them back up and fix the problem area that allowed for the break out. That simple folks.

Can't wait to find out what we are having!

So the memorial day weekend was good. Although we did nothing we said we were going to do, found out all my friends are having boys! Yes everyone I know that is pregnant (6 people) are all having boys!!!! So this makes me wonder if we are doomed to have a GIRL just because all the boys are taken (jk) or are we destined to have a boy because it seems like the season... I mean you can look at it from both angles. Now it just depends on our luck. lol.

So while luck may play a part in our babies fate as to what sex it will be.. we have our fingers crossed in hopes that it will be male!!! Either way I am sure we will be happy with it, as long as it is healthy and does not have colic, we have already been there and got the bald spot and T-shirt for that event and we don't want to go back. IF this baby has colic we are going to request someone else raise it for 6 months... lol maybe even a village ha ha... cause that is about what it takes, I don't know how I survived.

I am just praying for a happy healthy baby, with no complications, and a planned delivery, because in this day and age you can't plan enough.

I think my cousin is going to throw me a small baby shower, by small I mean, I am not sure who will come, as I have no friends, and I definitely have no family, just buddy and Kailey, I mean I have a mother, but during my first pregnancy she didn't come to my baby shower cause she was having a mentally off week, so she spent the weekend of my shower in the nut house!

My brother is no longer married so his wife can't come up with an excuse for not being there this time, instead the only excuse she has is she doesn't exist lol. My friend Michelle lives over 3000 miles away, so I guess we are just gonna wait until we find out what we are having, I will let my cousin Erin arrange the baby shower, and maybe she can scrape together a few acquaintances and we can have a good ole time.

But at the same time, I am not cool with that. I mean for the past 3 years I have went to about a dozen baby showers, all had about 30 to 100 people at them, which put Kailey's baby shower to shame cause well it had all of 5 people at it. I feel bad I don't have more friends and family.... I wish I did. Most of my "friends" wouldn't come cause they aren't what you call real friends, they are all more of acquaintances. I don't make it a daily deal to hang out with people, most of the time it is just me hanging out with Erin. I don't really get out much, unless it is with Buddy, and these days I am sick all the time... so its not like I am just gonna magically make friends!

Oh well, I am happy though, without all the strings and things. I mean I think I would like it if I had someone to talk to more often. Most of my friends are at work, but other than that we don't take our relationships home with us. We are friends, I don't consider them acquaintances cause most of them I have known for a while and just cause we don't go to the movies or have girls nights don't mean nothing. Cause even me and my old friend Anna didn't get to do that shit.  

So, hopefully Friday we will find out what we are having, and if we don't I don't know when we will know. It is kinda getting annoying not knowing. I want to know so we can start planning it's room and maybe even slowly buying things cause we don't have ANYTHING at all. Kailey is 5, we got rid of all her stuff as she out grew it because our house is too small and cluttered up to have all that stuff stored inside of it. If we had put it in a storage building the mice would have gotten to it. So we just gave it to other moms who needed it. All her clothes. bottles, pacifiers, toys, you name it and you need it for baby it is gone.

So I will close for now, I am tired and expect to start getting sick soon. Nothings seems to help with the Nausea or the vomiting. I am sick of being sick!