Tuesday was baby doctor day

So Tuesday was baby doctor day, Buddy and I went hoping to find out what we are having, but the nurse said she couldn't tell so here is a good pic of it's head.

My mom saw this pic and was like, "LOOK HOW BIG THE HEAD IS!", I don't guess she realizes how um small the baby is. lol.

So this appointment was for a Genetic Screening. The way they do this is they look at the fluid at the back of the babies neck, and the prominence of the the nose. They take your blood, and compare the information given from your blood and the information given in the measurements from your ultrasound.  So then after that they make you wait. I haven't heard anything so I am thinking this means good news. They were commenting on how well you could see the nose at this point, and they said that is good, because babies with downs normally you cant see the nose on ultrasounds as it is sunk into their face.

So this makes me happy that things are looking good. The nurse seemed just a bit concerned I had lost 10 LBS. But I gain all my weight in the first half of my pregnancy as if I am some freak of nature so I can stand to lose some weight, as long as the baby is healthy. I mean LOOK at me I already feel like a whale and we have only just begun. I am always sick to my stomach, and throwing up, and just queasy so I deserve to feel good somewhere right?

So then after our baby doctor appointment we went to Kay's to get all my Jewelry inspected and a chain that was broken fixed, and a ring that buddy just got me resized. Then we went to Victoria's Secret. That was nice I got me a nice comfortable bra and a nice pair of undies lol. (as if all yall wanted to know but I am telling ya anyways)

After our trip to Victoria's, we went down to the Olive Garden and had lunch. It was nice, they brought the food out at the right times.. not all at once, which is what you find other places doing, as if you are going to eat your salad while your food gets cold.

Then we ran to the US Cellular to take care of some Cell Phone business. That was fast. So then we went to catch a dollar movie (now the 2.00 movie). We saw hall pass. That was a good movie, very funny but there is a reason it is rated R!

Then we went home and got Kailey and spent the night just laying in bed watching TV. That was nice. I felt a lot better after we had a full day together.

I need some time

So I am going through a lot. Apparently I am not special, not to anyone. I have been very depressed. I am not a cryer, but today I find myself crying and trying to keep anyone from seeing me. I hate being at work today, if I didn't have an apointment tomorrow I would just go home.

I feel like crawling under a rock and hiding, but I can't. I just want to run away and take a vacation from life. Im soo tired. Apparently I have failed everyone in my life no matter how hard I have tried. I just need a break!

 I went camping over the weekend. Thursday night was supposed to just be kailey and I as buddy had to work on friday. Buddy ended up coming back and camping with us but pissin and moaning at bed time cause Kailey wouldn't quit moving.

Friday was a run around day, so I left camp, ran to the house took a shower and went to the doctor. Doctor says that I have to continue to wrap my toes. So then I had to keep on running around to get everything for the camping trip. I went to Home depot got an outdoor carpet. Ran to shoneys ate brunch with Kailey. Ran to food city got all the food. Ran home to get the coolers and the grill (all of which I had to load all by myself.) ran down to the shell and got 6 bags of ice, then went back to the camp ground.

It started pouring rain when I pulled back in, so I was able to get the one cooler out and bring it over to the awning area so that I could put food in along with ice. Then I just left the grill and the other cooler cause both were to heavy.. It had taken everything for me to get the grill into the back of the truck let alone getting it out.

So then Buddy finally comes by, and he is mad that I didn't put the carpet out, or get the grill out or do all of the stuff to set up camp. This upset me cause it had been raining and I was very tired. Friday night was not very eventful we had a camp fire, ate burgers and hot dogs, and just sort of hung out.

Saturday morning I went and got Erin and apparently she decided she wasn't going to camp. She was all over Kailey all day, which caused Kailey to act worse. But finally we had some fun. Wes showed up to get Erin, and she talked him into going canoing, they flipped the canoe into the pond which was hilarious.

Kailey and I were watching them, and we couldn't stop laughing. We finally went back to camp and they left and then buddy and I sat and talked for a while. This talk was different, and some things really hurt my feelings, even though he didn't want them to. I am just having a hard time over some of the stuff he said.

I am so confused, upset, sad, lonely, maybe it is just hormones. I just feel like running away. Sunday through today have been the miserable days, my life is a wreck and I just want to escape it. I can't stand being this sad.

Random Questions

Fun with Random Questions:

Last Random Question: Do you believe that forks are evolved from spoons?

Answer: No, they are too pointy! If that is a spoons baby there is something up with it!

Today’s Random Question: The love potion you made tastes terrible. How will you drink it? Answer: By holding my nose of course and forcing it down!!

I couldn’t resist needed yet another Random question so.....

Todays Second Random Question: You've successfully slain the dragon! How will you toast your marshmallows? Answer: Easy, with a stick, or my sword, depending on how done I would like them.

For those of you who do not blog in your profile they have a random question that you can change when you feel. So everyday you can get a new random question if you like, so I thought I would have fun with Random Questions.

The weekend and everything else at a glance.

     SO, I always wanted to work in journalism. I guess this is as close as Ill ever get lol. I have bad grammar and bad punctuation, and I need an editor. BUT I got my own column lol. And for those who don't have a sense of humor, maybe you shouldn't read my blog!

      So the weekend at a glance. Well my weekends have been about the same as my weekdays. On the weekends I normally run around Fridays, making any appointments I can't make throughout the week! Doing my shopping, and paying my bills. My cousin Erin has become an accessory. I enjoy having her around though. She makes me happy.

     Well we were supposed to go camping, but instead buddy had to work. I finally talked him into going and seeing the house that I have been wanting to look at. Hopefully we will buy it. It would be nice. I think we will like it there more. It is bigger, has more room and we are going to need it. Has a more opened floor plan and lord knows our house is cluttered. I doubt we will get it. See he and I have the same fear of commitment when it comes to our money. The longest monetary commitment for either of us was 2 years of car payments! We may not be rich but we budgeted everything around so we could pay the cars off quickly instead of having slow and painful debt.

     So we went and looked at the house on Saturday, he likes it, maybe we will get it after all who knows. Our house is small and cluttered for us and 2 kids. Although we didn't care for the yard too much, the house would still work out and with some landscaping we could make it nice.

     I have learned that Erin need not drink. Bud and her started early, and Erin fell asleep at like 4:30. This is why Patron is not a good afternoon starter. Because if you start drinking it at noon your are passed out by 4:30.. or At least she was. ha ha.

     She was up by 8pm though and we hung out for a while. We went to Wal-Mart to take movies back to red box. Then we spent the rest of the night watching Investigation Discovery. Finally went to sleep about 11pm.

     Sunday Erin got up to leave and go spend mothers day with the kiddos and the boyfriend. I slept a lot on Mothers day, but woke and cleaned the house. Did all the dishes, laundry, and picked up the house (boy was that heavy!). So I was glad to get all done, but then I got sick.... like I need to eat now or I am going to fear the wrath of baby Diablo... (yes, this baby has been deemed baby Diablo!). I stay sick, I can't ever have a good, cramp, barf, or any other kind of illness, free day. It has really begun to suck awful.

    So here are the mother's day gifts, given by my adorable (mean) 5-year-old and her sweet father.


My MOM necklace from Kay's



My open hearts ring. I love it!!



     I cant wait until next Tuesday, I hope we find out what it is. It will be nice to know. But if we don't we still have our appointment in June. I am crossing my fingers and praying every night that it is what we want. Since this is our last one and we are going to have some permanent measure's taken to make sure there are no more. I will be kind of sad if it is not. :-(.

     I know that this sounds mean cause you can't always have what you want. But we aren't one of those couples who will continue to burden ourselves and our already existent children with more children we can not afford. No matter what. I know that two is a budget breaker. More than 1 is too many in most cases unless you have some awesome job that normally keeps you away from them in the first place and then who is it fair to?

     So anyway, this is the last one no matter the sex of the baby, it is sad but true. One of these days maybe the world will go back to normal.

     So Monday was fast. I was sick just about all day. Took a walk at lunch and then ran to eat lunch with Erin. She made me an awesome lunch I loved it. I then returned to work. Went home fed animals, and children, and went to bed. Yes I have become a creature of habit and sleep! That is it. Well thanks for tuning in for this weeks random rant lol.

     Tuesday, I went to talk to the bank about the house we were looking at, but it looks like they may not give us a loan, depending on how much work needs to be done. Believe me if a house has been lived in it is going to need some work. This one has some stinky carpet that will be pulled up and some hard wood put down. I don't know, we are going to have to check into some other options.

Today is a sick day lol

So, today is one of those days; you know if you have ever been pregnant, you fell asleep last night way early as if you were an old woman... like 9ish. Then you were up every hour on the hour either peeing or trying not to puke. Then you got up this morning and couldn't find a dang shirt that fit, or a decent shirt asking yourself where the hell are my clothes! Then you finally got your ass in gear and you get a shirt on you get to work and find out it is an old T-shirt and it has stains on it. AWESOME!

I spent an hour this morning hurling my guts up trying not to let my eyeballs pop out of my sockets! It was grand. I feel like something has invaded my body and caused me to become a 90-year-old trapped in a 26-year-old body.

Yes being 26 sucks. Ill luckily have this child before I am 27. I have dubbed this baby, Baby Diablo. But it is wearing me out. I mean I had a huge loss of energy in the winter. But being pregnant is kicking my ass. It is even causing lots of problems between buddy and I because my first pregnancy was like being, well not pregnant. He thinks that I am just becoming a whiner or just being lazy. I swear I have a crashing point. I am not a whiner, and I am definitely not lazy... well most of the time. I feel overwhelmed and I feel discouraged like I am not going to overcome this and get back on my feet. I am too tired, and too stressed feeling.

So on a funnier lighter note, today at work they are drawing zombies on one of my co-workers boards. I mean in light of our very serious jobs we all still have pretty good sense of humors. Yes sometimes down right childish. It is awesome though and this is why I like my co-workers. Here are some pics of that for your enjoyment (whomever you are) (either that, or for my enjoyment at a later date when I am like 100 and living at the nursing home with my apple I pad reminiscing lol.).

The Zombie white board! Not for children to say the least.

So I still haven't posted this blog, have edited it everyday here is the latest zombie white board.

OK so I feel bad cause I never posted pics of Kailey's Easter, every night when I go home I fall asleep about 9pm, before that I do an ass load of chores or I spend time sulking on the couch trying not to throw up. I promise though even if it is JULY when I post them I will get pics of Kailey being a brat on Easter lol.

OH THE DAYS OF BED WETTING ARE YOU GONE???

On a happier more excited note, Kailey has went to bed the last two nights without a pull up, and has not wet the bed. I am SO excited. She is 5-years-old, and I know some people are thinking, "our kids was potty trained at 2" well for those of you who think my kid is odd for not being more "trained" all kids are different, and some have bladder issues so this is a great milestone for her. I never scolded her for wetting the bed. I had the same problems as a child and I got my rear beat every morning for wetting the bed. I also had a loose bladder which caused me to wet myself just from giggling or being tickled. I had to train myself to keep from peeing on myself, and I think with me starting Kailey early and working with her instead of whooping her every time she has an accident, I think this may help her to get a hold on the problem before it gets that far.  She has been to see a pediatric urologist, that has helped some, they told me how to help her, to quit peeing on her self and wetting the bed. So far we have made it this far and it seems great I am super excited

So I am going on vacation, been planning it out for months, finally pick the dates a month ago and even reserve a place from homeaway.com, forget all about it.... finally remember and then find out that Mel and I have planned on vacationing at the same time. I actually thought my boss was going to be mad that I am taking off the same time someone else in my department is, but she laughed it off. I hate that we already put the deposit down, and I tried to change it but there are no other available dates..so we are stuck with our dates.

I am excited though, however, about vacation and I can not wait to get a week on the beach even though I always get burnt and always regret how long I allowed myself to roast in the sun lol. I hope to have more energy by June, and I am going to need a maternity bathing suit so I can get my fat rear outside on the beach without looking like something that just got beached lol.