Been sick, and getting sick of a bunch of crap

So, I am tired, again, I can't seem to get my energy up or anything else for that matter.

I can't get a full nights sleep because my 5-year-old keeps coming in the room and climbing all over me trying to sleep in my bed. UGH I can't deal with it, I take her back to her room, go for a potty break, and then go back and try to sleep.

My day yesterday went OK, I went to store after work and then got home unloaded all the groceries put them all away, then sat down with Kailey to do her homework. Started a load of laundry after, made Kailey a quick microwave pizza and then got an ass chewing cause I didn't make real food for dinner. umm I didn't get home till 7pm, then helped Kailey with her homework made her something to eat....by the time I was done with that it was right at 9pm and it was her bed time. I am so sick of everyone thinking I should cater to their ass like I don't have myself to worry about to.

So instead of me getting dinner and everything I started the load of laundry and just went to bed. I woke up at 1am and Kailey was in the bedroom wallering all over me to the point I couldn't sleep, so I get up take her to her bed put the laundry in the dryer and head on back to bed. Restart the dryer this morning while throwing a load of dishes in the washer and getting my bed straightened out. It is all i can do, to do ALL of the house work! I am sick of it. I am wondering how he expects me to make his lunch, do the laundry, dishes, and get myself and kids ready in the morning so I can go to work? How is this going to work, I can't get 4 whole people ready in the morning.

I am going to need help. This is where I wish my mother could be a real adult and step in, I just don't trust her she likes to get out and drive around carelessly with children not in restraint seats and it scares me. I don't want my baby to get killed because my mom had an accident. She doesn't have a car with a backseat and the one thing they do have with a backseat is a huge truck that no one can drive properly, plus it chugs gas.

I don't know what we are going to do with Emma once she is here, I guess we will have to make a way to afford daycare again. Maybe I should just get a second job and become a workaholic! Or maybe I should just quit work all together and work the welfare system. lol.. just kidding you guys know how I feel about all that. I don't think that any of us should be a burden on another. I just think that the working class mother should have the opportunity to send her children somewhere safe without being gouged to death on the price as if they were going out for a night on the town! We don't want to be away from our children we want to be at home with them but this economy doesn't make that possible at all!