Being home.

It is nice being home, but it is all so overwhelming. On Tuesday they released me from the hospital late, we had to drive home in the rain and Cedar Bluff was flooded and people in Knox drive like some crazy idiots in the rain or snow. Both girls fell asleep on the way home. We had to take back roads cause the interstate was SO backed up in both directions.


We got home.. and instead of calling in my scripts for me, or just filling them at the hospital, I had to run out and take paper scripts to wal-mart, and have them filled myself not something you want to do after just having a baby. I then went to BK and got us all dinner and that was confusing because they put in a second speaker box at the BK! WOW I can imagine how confusing that would be.


So Emma did good while I was away at the store and I didn't get any calls from buddy saying he didn't know what to do cause there was nothing to do. Something that I can assure you was not the case with Kailey!


To add to my horrible anxiety I have a bit of depression. Most people know I am not one to cry. I just don't do it, I didn't even cry when my best friend died, so I am sure not gonna cry over stupid stuff... but I did and have done that and I must confess it is not my best side....now I remember why I don't cry.....ummm yeah its pathetic.


So with thanksgiving on Thursday I was a bit overwhelmed with baby feeding, cooking and trying to have to get over the fact my family was coming down. The sad part is that my mother was supposed to come down and help cook and I eventually had to call her and wake her up at like 4 or 5pm. My dad said, "you should have just called when you were ready for her to come" I just had a kid and she promised she would help I shouldn't have to call her.


when she finally got here I just went and took care of Emma and left what was left to do up to her. Kailey had helped me with a lot of the stuff earlier. she has been a big helper, she helped make green bean casserole, she helped make banana pudding, she even helped with sweet potato casserole and 3 pumpkin pies I made from scratch. She also injected the turkey with creole butter


We had a good pre-thanksgiving dinner cooking party Kailey and I did. Needless to say by the time my mom got here I had to cluster feed poor Emma who I hadn't had time to MAKE wake up and eat. Yes Emma you have to MAKE her wake up to eat. Most babies would cry and beg for food I have to cry and beg her to wake up and eat lol.


So here is the highlight of our thanksgiving evening. Before all the food was ready and before my dad got back my mother went down the hall to our communal bathroom and was using it with the door wide opened and the lights turned out. Buddy who has to drink to deal with her craziness and sometimes dad, went to go use the bathroom... and there was my 40-something year old mother (yes I am not sure of her age) sitting on the toilet. So he just turned and walked away reminding himself that it is just one holiday and gonna forget about it. She then calls for him "Buddy" as if she wasn't on the toilet and there was nothing wrong with it....he says "WHAT" she says "tell Amanda to get me a pad" (not embarrassed at all by the way).


I am in the other end of the house talking to Buddy's mom on the phone, while breast feeding my kid. Buddy comes in there and tells me what just happened so I give him his mother on the phone, walk to the other bathroom where my mother is still sitting waiting on me to hand deliver a pad which is right behind her on the shelving behind the toilet, which she shouldn't have expected me to have or supply to her anyways, she knows that for the last 5 years I haven't needed them... Oh and by the way this is the same woman who has told EVERY one that she has had a hysterectomy.


So I tell her the pads are behind you, shut the fucking door this isn't a private room, no one wants to see you on the toilet this ain't your house. She says, well Kailey left the door opened, umm all I could think is what ever when buddy walked in she didn't ask him to shut it, then she expected I believe that Kailey left it opened. Now she wonders why we don't do holidays with them! We normally just have an immediate family holiday, me buddy and Kailey but because of Emma we decided that we would let them come (cause they imposed) because I may need the help after all I just had a baby.


So after the fucked up bathroom incident, she told buddy, "i had to clean that turkey out with my bare hands it was like having sex (while shaking her hips)." umm what the hell is wrong with this woman. I am SO embarrassed of her I want to crawl under a rock. I hope that whatever stupid she is stuck on isn't passable to my children!


So I think she was sick she had made mention that if she drank too much caffeine she would get diarrhea, which I think she had been sick with for a few days, cause Emma started having Diarrhea the next morning and still has it. I am worried if she doesn't stop having it she will be at children's before the end of the weekend.


Oh my mom had to announce her diarrhea issue at dinner.


So I wanted to go out for black Friday but the new baby kind of enabled me to do so. I need to get out of the house though. I am so tired though I cant and it is not the babies fault cause she sleeps from 2am - 7 or 8 am with no waking. I love her, she is the best baby in the world. I am just wore out and in pain. I use to have a high pain tolerance now I feel like it is pretty damn low.


The only upside to my mother coming to my house for Thanksgiving is she is an obsessive compulsive cleaner and she cleaned my kitchen for me and put away all my food. so this was my holiday and I hope you have found the energy to pick yourself up off the floor and quit laughing to get off my page.