So Thursday was Kailey's 5th birthday! She was SO loving, she missed us while she was away at my moms and we were at work. I hated being at work on her 5th birthday.

So Friday I took her to see the dentist. She has lost 2 teeth this year within 3 months of each other. The dentist says that is OK, but her tongue needs to be snipped he said he is surprised that she don't have speech problems and it is hard for her to touch the roof of her mouth with the tip of her tongue with her mouth opened. The base of her tongue is anchored right behind her teeth as well so that is odd. When she stretches it up it pulls on the gum line.

Today we are having her birthday party, at the BK in LC. I figured a cheap place to have it would be a free play area, and as long as we buy all the kids a kids meal no one can say or complain about anything. I just wanted all the kids to have a good fun time.

Kailey is excited but i worry not many kids will show up. I remember my birthdays, no one ever came so we just didn't have any. One time my cousin Casey came which was nice and we haven't really been friends I think that is when I started getting depressed about my life. I realized how big a looser I was and that no one even liked me.

One time a girl named Sara came to my brothers birthday party and that was nice. I guess you just don't go to white trash birthday's, I definitely don't want it to be that way for Kailey. Buddy wants me to stop having birthday parties for Kailey, he says that its stupid to have a birthday party every year! I never heard nothing like that. I thought you were supposed to have a birthday party every year!

I know not a big blow out. We tried Chuckie cheese one year, that was a bomb. Not many people came but Kailey had fun. It didn't matter to Kailey she enjoyed it. It is really sad that Buddy's family tends to let Kailey down a lot. I want to take her to see them but they are big trouble!

By that I mean sometimes when you think that they are great people you catch them trying to cause trouble or they do lots to disappoint the ones you love.

I use to drive up there and take Kailey to see them. They didn't appreciate that! And they certainly never drove down to visit. They use to, I don't know I guess they just don't feel like being a part of all that. I feel bad for Kailey and I told buddy if it continues then Kailey will just not know them cause I am not going to continue to get her hopes up about phantom family.


Me, I would give you the shirt off my back while you spit in my face. Ill keep doing things for UN-appreciative people and never think twice, while he sits here and tells me those people don't care they are not your Friends, it is not about that, they are still people and they still need and deserve things. Sometimes not deserve lol, but more along the lines of needs.

So maybe I am just stupid, maybe I help people out for no reason other than feeling useful. He acts like it is a burden on him, but honestly when I help people it is on my own time, on time when I would have normally been sitting my ass at home on this computer doing nothing while he watched TV and sat on his ass at the couch.

I think that this year I am going to focus on not caring I am going to careless in 2011 and say fuck all those people who sit and use and use and use me and then lose me after they are done. Yes I am talking about you

I hope my daughter has a great birthday party. One of these days she will be old enough to just get a call from them one day and say " who are you I don't know you, why are you calling me? You didn't show up for my birthdays, I never saw you at special holidays! I never knew you please leave me alone!"

I know she will have her real friends and family to fall back on and we will be here for her when she falls!

Later today,

Well we went to the BK to set up as you can't reserve space, some other party was going on in the kids play area. I worked at BK for 2 years, I know they don't do reservations or private parties, as long as you pay for your food they can't be against you having a party hell you can leave all your garbage on the table and they will clean it up!

The people who were throwing the party had the whole play area taken up, so we sat in the main dining room it was still fun. But we sent the kids to play! Later we realized that the people with the party in the play room had tried to put these signs saying that it was a private party, first off you are sorry if you are trying to throw a "private" party for a 2 year old in a public play room where other children's parents come to buy them a Kids meal and let them play.

Second off you are totally stupid if you think that you can throw a private party in a place that is public and doesn't cater to partys! Go to chucky cheese they give you your own private table you cheap skates. Yes we let our kids come in the play room and play! Just like if we had, had a party in there we defenantly would not have tried to block other children from playing in there. It would not have been fair, we didn't pay any extra for the space and it was still public.

We kept wondering why those people were giving us dirty looks! (our kids were playing in the play area they had tried to turn to a private party room) Well as the BK staff told us they don't book em and you are free to use whatever you want as long as you aren't tearing up stuff. So to those people trying to be cheap and have a "private" party with their 2 year old Happy birthday to your kid, but I am sorry my daughter is just as special as yours and it is the burger king for god sake not the ritz carelton and hardly any of your kids were playing in the play area!

Maybe you should learn some manners, also if you want to really try next time dont be so cheap with your printer paper and ink and print your signs where they are ledgeable. That is how cheap you are, you want to turn the public play area into a private one just for your snobby selfish reasons and then you want to print it in small letter head so that you can hide it from the staff and hope that other parents stay out with their kids. I hope your kids have more respect and heart than you do when they are adults.